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Why is the world so cruel to us? We just want to build our dream happy family. We just want to be together and have a family of our own because we never experience to have one.
Tears is escaping from my eyes as I stared at her lifeless body on a hospital bed. I couldn't even help myself to go near her.
She's gone.
My wife whom I cherish the most is already gone.
"R-ria... huwag mo naman akong lokohin. This is just one of your prank, r-right?" I said with a cracked voice even though I know that she's already gone.
I slowly went beside her. With tears on my eyes, I held her bloody hand. And that's when I burst into tears because I couldn't feel her returning my hold anymore.
" Ria!!! No! No! This can't be happening! We're still gonna build our family right?! Please! Why!? Just why!!"
Only if I wasn't stubborn enough, baka buhay pa siya ngayon. Baka na nailigtas ko pa siya.
I felt so useless.
I am a doctor but I couldn't even save my own wife.
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" Condolence, Dr. Gevalia. " My co-doctor said.
Wala ako sa sarili ko. Nakatulala lamang ako habang nakatingin sa larawan ng babaeng pinakamahalaga sa akin. She's so beautiful and innocent. Why did she have to leave me so early?
"Are you okay?" napatingin ako kay Dr. Murphess na umupo sa tabi ko.
"How am I supposed to be okay? Only if I listen to all of you..." walang buhay kong sagot.
She sigh. "Your wife's not gonna like it if you blame yourself like that."
A tear fell from my eyes. "How I wish she could just nag me right now." sabi ko at napatawa ng mapakla.
Tapik lamang sa balikat ang naisagot niya bago tumayo at nag tungo sa ibang mga doctor na nandirito.
I stared at her picture on my phone. I kept missing her presence every passing seconds. My tears wouldn't stop while I am looking at her photos. She likes to take photos of herself on my phone. Napangiti ako ng pilit habang nakatingin sa mga litrato niya.
"Summer Ria Ventura-Gevalia... I miss you so damn much,"bulong ko sa sarili ko.
" What happened to her? "
" Ang sabi, may obsess na lalaki raw na nanloob sa bahay nila at basta na lang siyang sinaksak ng paulit-ulit. Sayang, bagong kasal pa man din sila. Ang balita pa nga raw ay buntis siya. "
" Oh my gosh!"
I stood up from the chair and left the chapel after hearing that. I don't know who killed my wife and I don't fucking know why he have to do that?!
She's so kind. Bakit kailangang mangyari yun sa kaniya?
I went to my car and drove it to the police station. Sabi ng police, nahuli na raw ang may gawa nun sa asawa ko. Gusto ko lang malaman bakit kailangan niyang gawin yun?! Bakit asawa ko pa?! Bakit hindi na lang ako?!
Nang makarating ako sa police station, kaagad akong nag tungo sa loob. Natagpuan ko na kinukuwestiyon ng mga pulis ang suspect na walang ginawa kundi ang tumawa.
"Sagutin mo ang tanong namin! Anong motibo mo sa pagpatay na ginawa mo kay Misis Gevalia!?"
" My motive?" natatawang anito. " Because she should have married me instead of that good for nothing bastard!"
Kinuyom ko ang kamao ko at dali daling nagtungo sa kaniya at walang sabi-sabing pinagsusuntok ko ang pagmumukha niya.
" Walanghiya ka! Hayop ka! Gago ka! Summer and I just want to have our own family pero sinira mo ang pangarap namin! Puntangina mo! Hayop ka!" sigaw ko habang pinagsusuntok ang pagmumukha niya at habang pinipigilan ako ng mga pulis.
Napaupo na lamang ako sa sahig matapos siyang suntukin ng paulit-ulit. I covered my face with my hand and burst into tears.
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No one will wake we up again early in the morning. No one will nag me anymore because I choose to sleep some more that ended me, getting late for work. No one because she's gone.
I am staring at the television kung saan binabalita ang kaso ng asawa ko. Nakalaya ang walanghiyang suspect because of lack of evidence but I doubt that's the reason. I'm sure they threatened everyone just to be in their own favor. Anak ba naman ng isa pang walanghiyang senator. Kinakahiya ko talaga na pareho kami ng ama ng siraulong yun. Sinusumpa ko na parte ako ng bulok na pamilyang 'yan. They didn't even consider me as their own even up until now dahil anak ako sa labas.
I turned off the television. Tumayo ako sa sofa at lumabas ng bahay. Nag drive ako patungo sa puntod ng asawa ko. Noong nandoon na ako, naupo ako sa tapat ng puntod niya. I clean the surrounding of my wife's grave.
"I always misses you. I'm sorry that I couldn't even gave you the justice that you deserve. Wala ka na eh. Alam mo naman na ikaw yung magaling sa makikipaglaban sa korte. Alam mo naman na sa ating dalawa, ikaw yung mas matapang. Gusto ko na lang sumama sa'yo kasi miss na miss na kita. Summer Ria, please take me with you for I have misses you so much. "
After I went to my wife, I drove back to our house. The silence is very overwhelming. The silence is killing me.
I took a deep breath before I went inside. I didn't bother opening the light and went inside of our bed room. I opened the cabinet kung nasaan ang mga gamot at walang pag aalinlangan na ininom ko lahat ng gamot. I laid myself in bed and curled my toes as I cry endlessly.
"I just wish to see you once again, My wife."
And with that, the darkness totally enveloped my consciousness.
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ΡομαντικήThey are two people who love each other dearly. They are about to build their own family but tragedy came and he lost her. Karm Jian Gevalia didn't want to live anymore after the passing of his wife. So, he chooses to commit suicide. The last wish...
