I thought by saying "I'm happy you're happy with him"
Would mean that I'm over her
But I'm not
I like myself better when I'm with her
She's given me strength
She's given me confidence
She's made me a better person
It was the pain
that made me resent
everyone else around me
Including myself
I knew it was wrong
But I'm crazy for her
I want all of her flaws and imperfections
Underneath what I see
From the words that
come from her heart
To the body
underneath her dresses
underneath the blazers
underneath the outfits
She makes me smile
She makes me happy
She's made me sad
i exposed myself to her
Opening up
Letting all of those emotions
Get released
Keeping my feelings inside
Each day gets harder
I have trouble with paying attention
I have trouble with getting distracted
I have trouble with zoning out
I'm tired all the time
I'm burnt out
I don't know what to do anymore
I'm creating a cycle from
her making me happy
being happy for her
to me
being resentful of myself
cause I know falling for her is wrong
Finding out she found someone else
Broke me
I still can't move on
I know I sound pathetic
I know I am
It's my fault
I know it is
I'll take the blame
If she knew the truth
She wouldn't look at me the same
All the things I've said
Like a broken record
"I want"
I want to feel her skin on mine
I want to feel her lips against mine
I want to feel her body
The heat, the good pain
And moan her name
Skin to skin
The lips and the hips
We'd take a breath
Looking in each other's eyes as she strokes my hair
Creating romance and pleasure
Taking her words to my heart
Making a relationship into an art
I can't force her to want the same things
I can't force her to feel what I feel
I know I can't wish it either
When I always feel like a bother
She always tells me "You're Good."
Sometimes I have a hard time believing.
She has a true place in my heart.
Even though I'm afraid to say it
I do feel it
I love her
I don't know how to change that
My feelings aren't a light switch
Sometimes I do feel like I'm going back and forth
But I have a lot on my mind
But she's always in the back of my head
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Poem Collection
PoetryThis book is a mix of poems and my diary entry's. I've been at a loss for words for the past 2 or so years after writing i story I practically surrogatly lived through and proudfully deleted. I've been trying to make a new start for myself since the...
