To Be Determined

~~Chapter 17~~

Minho

    We ended up spending the evening in my room. Didn't check in with the others in the dorm. I could tell Jisung was still a little flustered about the fact that they literally listened to me rail the fuck out of him. I wasn't embarrassed per say, but definitely had empathy for Jisung. I don't particularly want the kids to hear me enjoying myself and thoroughly enjoying Jisung.

    I had noticed when I came back into my room after making us a snack to replenish some of our spent energy, that Jisung had been sitting at my desk writing into a book. Was he journaling? Good. He should. It would help him get through thoughts and fears and what have you. I strongly encourage it.

    His eyes shot to mine when he heard me come into the room. He quickly wrote something else down and then closed the book. I offered him an encouraging smile.

    "Don't stop just because I showed up. You can keep writing. I actually strongly suggest you write as much as you can. I have always believed that it helps keep thoughts straight and helps to work through any conflicting emotions and confusing things."

    He smiled back at me. He looked so tired, but his expression was definitely a lot brighter than it was an hour ago. I moved closer to him and set a bowl down in front of him. I had just made some quick ramen for us. He glanced at it and then looked up at me with a slight pout. I tilted my head at him.

    "What is it, Sungie?"

    He flushed a little. He reached for my free wrist and grasped it gently. He pulled me closer and down a bit, quickly capturing my lips with his own. I smiled softly into the kiss and melted into him a bit. The things he did to me. He made my heart melt. He made me want to do absolutely anything I can to keep him happy and content. Man, I was so in love it wasn't even funny.

    I pulled back a bit and he bit his lip softly before turning to his ramen and quickly digging in. Good boy. He needed to eat to keep his stamina and strength. Especially if he wanted the long haul with me. He thought what we did today was tiring... it was only the tip of the iceberg.

    I watched him as I ate. Just taking in all of his features and mannerisms. He was precious. His cheeks puffed when he ate, almost like a hamster. It was adorable. I couldn't help but smile as I watched him. He was so innocent on the surface... but I knew otherwise now. Han Jisung was actually kinkier that he probably even thought. It made me happy knowing I was the only one that has seen this so far.

    "Hey Sungie..."

    He gave me a soft 'hmmm?' in response. I smiled a bit after he turned to look at me, Already finished with his ramen.

    "You're doing okay? You don't have to completely divulge everything to me, but I do just want to check in and make sure you aren't unhappy with today's events."

    He shrugged at me a bit and then placed his bowl on my desk. He stood and walked over to me and grabbed my also now empty bowl and put it on my nightstand. I was leaned back against my headboard. My eyes looked over him and then connected with his. I tilted my head slightly and smirked as he crawled into my lap and straddled my thighs. He sat back a bit on them and loose slung his arms around my neck.

    "I'm okay Minnie. Really. I was just a little overwhelmed and honestly am still not sure how to handle my feelings and thoughts around the fact that those three heard all of that...I don't want them to think differently of me... I mean know Felix wont... at least he better not... after what he told me at least..."

    I barely caught the last part of what he had said as he mumbled it very quietly. I raised and eyebrow and snaked my arms around his waist and pulled him a bit closer. I just wanted to feel the warmth of him right now. It was very comforting. I might have to add cuddling Jisung to my own list of needs for after care. I never used to be a cuddler... but he might just be making a liar out of me.

    "What... exactly did Felix tell you?"

    Jisung's cheeks flared red. I couldn't help but snicker a bit as he tried to hide his face into my neck. I ran my hand up his back and into his hair. Gently stroking and playing with it. I felt him physically relax into my hold and sigh softly. I also release a sigh of my own.

    "Uhm... I don't know if he would want me to share that information right now..."

    I could feel the heat from Jisung's cheek on my neck as he still tried to hide from me. I wasn't going to push the subject, but I would be lying if I said I wasn't curious. Maybe I could get it from Felix? Or Changbin? I doubt Changbin would say anything... He's pretty private. Now Felix on the other hand. Maybe? He always seemed a little more open talking about these kinds of things.

    "I guess I will just have to ask him..."

    Jisung giggled slightly and then nuzzled into my neck softly. It sent a shiver through me. I loved being close to this man. Any second I get, I try to let myself get swallowed up in it. He was so sweet, caring, gentle... everything I could have asked for in a submissive... I feel as if this is going to turn out to be a great adventure for the two of us.

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A/N:

Aaayyyeee. Here's the next update. I have been tired as shit and had a kind of hectic health scare last

But now that I am feeling a bit better and what have you. I wanted to update. I also started to play FFXIV again. Good bye life. ☠️