To Be Determined

~~Chapter 2~~

Minho

I had fallen asleep to my thoughts and music that was softly playing in my headphones. My hand never left Jisung's though. Not for one moment. He appeared to want to cling to the skinship as well, for as long as we could at least. Before I knew it I was being gently awoken by my squirrel. We were finally landing back home.

Though I was excited to be home, I wouldn't be completely excited until I was in the van headed back to the dorm. I sometimes missing being in the same dorm with all of the kids. Sometimes. It's nice to have my own space now... though I do missing seeing Jisung all the time. I miss our group dinners in the living room... but the quiet sometimes out weighs that. Felix, Seungmin, and Jeongin keep to themselves for the most part. That, and we all have schedules to attend to aside from doing things a collective.

As we left the airport, things were mildly chaotic. The crowds were insane, as per usual. Chan stayed behind us, keeping a protective eye over everything. Such a good leader. I stayed close to Jisung. I know he loves the Stays, but sometimes his anxiety can get the best of him. Especially after a long flight like we just had.

I had reached for Jisung's hand and squeezed it gently to let him know I had him and things would be okay. He clung to me, which instantly told me that he was more than overwhelmed at the moment. He kept him close and hurried along with the staff and security the best that I could.

Quickly we were ushered into our vans, which was here I had to separate from Jisung. Not before I made sure he got inside okay. I quickly moved to mine and hopped in with the other boys. We all slept on the drive to the dorm as well. Exhaustion was just too much today. I also felt like I could sleep for a couple of days straight easily. I loved going to the states, but the trip there and back always took a toll on me.

I slept lightly, so I woke as soon as the van stopped at the dorms. I made my way out and to the building. Jisung had quickly made his way to me, grasping my hand again. I could feel him shaking a bit. Though it was hard to tell if it was from the cold or the nerves he had rolling through him. I glanced at him, trying to see if I could read his expression. It was pretty blank, but there was a slight sign of worry in his eyes. I nudged him gently.

"You doing okay Jisungie?"

A smile had slipped onto the younger's lips at the nickname. That satisfied me for the time being. His smile was precious and I wished I could see it every moment of the day. Shoot, I wished that him and I were in the same dorm still so I could see him everyday. Maybe I could talk to the staff about living arrangements again.... or I could just sneak Jisung into my room...

My mind had wandered that I hadn't realized we had made it to the elevator and up to our dorms. I reluctantly let go of Jisung's hand and smiled softly at him. His eyes still had some anxiety peeking through. I pursed my lips a bit and pulled him into a hug. He clung to me, and I could tell he did not want to let go for the life of him.

"It's okay Jisung... Just text me if you need anything. I'm not that far away... if you decide you don't want to be alone tonight, just let me know. You know you can always hang out with me, even stay the night over in our dorm if you want." I tried my best to reassure him. He seemed to be okay with what I had said because he nodded.

"I will let you know... I have some stuff I have to work on with Chan and Changbin." He smiled, though it almost reached his eyes...I could tell he wanted to stay here with me. I inwardly sighed and stepped back. I gave him a soft smile before I entered my dorm and headed straight for my room.

I flopped onto my bed. Thoughts had started to flood my brain again about how badly I wanted to show Jisung my lifestyle. Help him understand and possibly be everything that I want him to be. I was terrified still. His friendship meant so much more to me than anything else ever could.

I found myself falling asleep pretty quickly as I rolled over onto my stomach and snuggled into my pillow. I slept hard. Though when I woke up and checked the time it was mid-evening and I didn't end up getting much sleep at all. It was refreshing, but surprising at the same time.

I quickly got myself up, showered and a change of clothes. A tighter pair of jeans and a black sweater fit the bill for what I was feeling today. I had done some research on the clubs near the area. Though I didn't want to be so close to the company incase anyone were to recognize me... that wouldn't be the best situation. Though at most clubs, especially the ones I had looked into... there was a lot of NDA's being passed around. To protect all parties involved. Thank god.

So, I left the dorm quickly. Though I didn't miss the few strange looks I got from the other boys as they saw me leave in a hurry. It made me smirk as I broke out into the fresh spring air of Seoul. The gentle breeze rustled my hair a bit and made me relax. I shoved my hands in my pockets, pulled out my mask and slipped it on quickly, then hailed a taxi.

I didn't plan on participating in anything tonight, but I definitely needed to see what the scene was like here and if I was going to enjoy it as much as I did in the States. Thankfully the ride wasn't too long and I had the driver drop me off a few blocks down from the venue. Safer that way.

I approached the building, hands in my pockets again. I looked it up and down and then reached my hand out to the door and opened it. It creaked a bit, but I stepped into the warm vestibule and instantly felt the music vibrating through the floor. I loved that feeling. As I continued into the club, I was greeted by a hostess of sorts.

"Welcome! I haven't seen your face here before. What's your name?"

She was pretty. Very pretty, and dressed perfectly for this setting. Her hair was tied back into a tight bun. She almost looked business professional. I bowed to her quickly. I had thought when I made my inquiries on this club that I should use a fake name, but I was feeling adventurous.

"Hello, Lee Minho." I nodded again as she checked through her tablet for a second. She looked back at me with a smile.

"Ah yes. Welcome again! My name is Park Ji-a. I have been the one you have been communicating with. I see you are not new to the this life style, but found your calling in the states?"

I nodded politely. I had at that point slipped my mask off and put it back into my pocket. She motioned for me to follow her, and I did so. The place was just as dark as all the ones I had experienced in the states. It was good to know that not much changed there.

"Here we are. You stated that you just wanted to observe on your first visit. Get a feel for what we have to offer?"

I nodded and bowed a bit again. "Yes, I participated in a lot of scenes and experiences in the states, but am just trying to find the best fit for me here. I am looking for a sub still, but have not found anyone yet that fits what I am looking for..." She smiled at the last comment.

"Just to specify. You are looking for a male sub correct?"

I nodded in response. Though in reality I wouldn't be that picky if it was someone I clicked with, but right now I was really hoping for a submissive male to bring into my life. My mind again shifted to Jisung. Oh how I wished...

"Well, you have free range of the lounge and bar. Please make yourself comfortable and enjoy your time here. Do not hesitate to let me know if there is anything you may need."

She left at that point and settled myself in. I wasn't sure how long I would spend here, but the night was young and I had a lot of people watching to do. 

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A/N: 

Welp I was feeling generous this week.  I am really digging this story, but I don't want to post too much and run out of a backlog of chapters... I am currently writing Chapter "19" of this story.  And you will understand why I say "19" as there are some surprises that come with this story... some little extras if you will.  

So sit back and enjoy Chapter 2!