To Be Determined

~~Bonus Chapter 3~~

Jisung

Date: xx/xx/xxxx

Time: 22:32pm

I don't know why I said yes.

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I talked to Minho tonight. I wanted more answers...and I think I just signed myself up for something I don't think I am ready for. I've always loved Minho... more than just my bandmate, friend, brother... who am I kidding... I've been in love with him for a long time.

Shit... that felt good to write... I feel like he knows it too. We have both known it, just we haven't been able to come to terms with it and figure it out.

I'm getting off track journal... you are supposed to help stay on track right? Haha.

Anyway... we talked about the... Dominant and submissive stuff tonight. I can't lie and say that I wasn't relieved when he told me he hadn't participated in a while. Also that he hadn't found what he was looking for yet.

Then... I agreed to something that I am not sure if I should have... He explained to me what he was looking for... a partner, but not just a meet once a week type of deal or only see each other when they are doing "scenes" type of partner. He wants someone who is around 24/7...

My brain instantly wanted to volunteer... even though I don't know jack shit about what this all entails... that's terrifying to me... I can't believe I agreed to it. But he had never looked more happy than he did in that moment. I don't want to break his heart... I really don't.

I think I can try this... maybe? It's going to take a while... I'm an idiot...

He said we would discuss more later, and that he would make a formal agreement between the two of us, but he wanted me to experience... or see some of the life style first before I did anything. Which.. now that I am thinking about it... is a good idea.

What did I get myself into..... I'm still a virgin for fuck's sake....

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A/N: 

Tada! 

Things are going to start revving up from here if I remember correctly... so uhm like buckle up?