Something unsaid

Lamha ya Arsa

Naina (exhaled a breath and looked at him with tears) : "Naveen bhaiya ko aapne maara ye kah kar chale gaye, jaise ki koi bari baat nahi thi. Aapne ek baar baar bhi baat nahi ki aur na hi samjhane ki koshish ki aapne aisa kyu kiya. Main tut gayi thi aur itne gusse mae thi ki aap par goli chala di. (in loud voice) I wanted to hurt you, wanted you to feel the pain that my brother felt when he died. I wanted to punish you for killing him and for breaking my trust as had always trusted you blindly. Jo aap kahte woh hi karti thi, par aapne mujh par trust nahi kiya tabhi toh bataya nahi kabhi".

Rajveer was in so much pain when told Naina how Naveen died  and didn't thought how she will take it. He thought maybe Naina will not come to mission and will handle Dr. Ritu alone. But didn't he know Naina as how she will leave her brother's murderer and won't punish him for killing Naveen and her trust.

Naina : "Abhimanyu se main sirf isliye baat karti thi kyuki woh bhaiya kae dost the aur unke paas se koi surag mil jaye red box ka. Taki main unko innocent proof kar du. Unki aapse koi purani problem thi shayad. Aapne mera unse baat karna toh dekha par ye nahi dekha ki main unpar woh trust nahi kar payi jo aap par karti thi. I was not comfortable with him as I was with you. Aapke paas jab bhi hoti thi toh lagta hain kuch bhi ho jaye aap mera saath denge. I trusted you but you didn't.

Court mae bhi aapne yahi kiya, you didn't trust me. Agar aap mujh se sawal karte toh kya main aap kae bare mae kuch galat bolti. Pata hain aapki problem kya hain. You can stand for all but not for yourself.

(walked a step towards Rajveer) Aap apne liye nahi larte aur humesha chup rahte hain jab woh aap par sawal karte hain. Mentorship kae baad bhi aur court mae bhi chup rahe. Aur tabh bhi, jab aap mujhse aakhri baar mile. Apni baat bhi puri nahi ki aur itne saal tak chupe rahe. (clear tears) You are scared of yourself and your feelings."

Rajveer can understand her pain, anger and bitterness for him. He was scared of his feelings but not now. He wants to tell her about it as it's not like the past where he was tied to rules, guilt or scared of what effects it will have on her as she was her student and sister of his friend. Naina was tired of his silence and shouted

Naina : "Bolte kyu nahi hain, darpok hain na aap".

Rajveer (frustratingly) : "Ha hu darpok. Par sirf tumhe khone kae dar se, humare rishte ko badnaam hone kae dar se".

Naina walked one more step and was standing in front of him. She doesn't want to listen to his excuses as he always says that he will be there but when something happens then he don't fight for himself and try to hide his feelings.

Naina : "Jhoot mat boliye. Aap humesha hi bhaag jaate hain jab baat aapki aati hain. I am not important to you.".

Rajveer was not able to take her complaints anymore and shouted

Rajveer : "Mere liye tum kya mayne rakhti ho maine kaise batau. Jab se tum mili ho meri zindagi tumhare aas paas hi ghumti hain. Tum ko koi kuch kah de ya nuksan puchane ko soche bhi toh mera pehla reaction hota hain tumhe bachana. Main Naveen nahi ban sakta malum hain mujhe (looked into her eyes with tears) par please mujhe ek mauka de do, main tumhe kabhi dur nahi jane dunga".

Rajveer moved a steps towards her and now they were standing very close to each other. They can hear their heartbeats which were running at high speed and can see in their eyes love, longing and pain for each other.

Rajveer (pleadingly) : "I trust you with my life Naina. Main humesha chup raha kyuki main tumhe badnam hote nahi dekh sakta. I thought if I stay away from you and behave rudely then people will stop saying bad things about you. Isliye court mae bhi chup tha, koi tumhe character par kuch kahe main bardast nahi kar sakta. Mera yakeen karo, tum mujhe abh kabhi bhi nahi khougi".