bathroom boy (Johnnie Guilbert X Jake Webber)

CH.14 - Can I say "I love you" without it being weird?

Jake's pov:

I wake up in bed all alone. Im assuming everyone is already up because I can hear yelling downstairs. I don't know how these people can be so energetic so early in the morning. I sigh as I finally reach the bottom of the staircase.

"Johnnie, you have so many let me count them all!" Colby yells, chasing Johnnie around the dining room table

"Colby, fuck off. I will hit you." Johnnie yells as he runs behind me

"Whoa!" I say as he hugs me from behind

"Oh come on, you can't just hide behind your boyfriend!" Colby laughs

"I'm so lost..."

"Basically, Colby won't leave Johnnie alone because of his hickeys. He won't say who gave them to him but we all know you did."

"W-well i-" I get cut off

"Anyways I made you breakfast, it's on the counter. Hurry and eat so we can go to school."

I walk into the kitchen and eat my food then go back up stairs to get dressed. Once I'm dressed I hear a knock  on the door.

"Hey, can I borrow some clothes?" Johnnie asks

"Yeah sure! Take whatever." I smile as I sit on the bed

I watch as he picks out a hoodie and some jeans. I smile as I watch him get dressed. He's so perfect. Once he finishes getting dressed he looks at me staring at him, causing him to blush.

"L-lets go." He blushes as he takes my hand and drags me out of my room

We get into Sam's car and drive to school. It was a nice car ride. It was actually raining today, my favorite weather. Instead of looking out the window and watching the rain fall, all of my attention was on Johnnie. I usually don't pay any attention to the hickeys that I leave on him but I think that's because he typically covers them up with makeup. Not today though. I could see every sing one. I blush the longer I look at them. I start to bite my lip as I look him all over.

"Why are you staring at me like that?" Johnnie whispers to me

"Because I lo-" I cut myself off

I know I've told Johnnie that I love him. I've probably done it a few times. But I feel like if I said it right now it would freak him out. How to I tell my best friend that I love him without it being weird? I mean I literally gave the man hickeys but I can say I love you? How pathetic..

"Because I like looking at you." I smile

He just smiles back at me before looking back out the window watching the rain fall. Fuck. Ive never felt like this before. With my past partners I've easily been able to express my feelings and move on to actually dating pretty quick..but Johnnie? He's completely different. I think it's because I've already experienced losing him and i fear that Imma lose him again. I'm not walking on eggshells but sometimes there's a bump in the road that neither of us can control. I hate how sappy I get when I think about him but I love it at the same time. Shit. I'm so pathetic. I don't know a dam thing when it comes to him. How do I tell him that I want him without freaking him out? I should ask Sam. He's typically good with words.

Once we reach the parking lot we stay in Sam's car till the bell rings. I walk Johnnie to class then rush to my own. I didn't see him again until lunch.

"Guys!" Johnnie says as he happily takes a seat next to me
"Did you hear about the party happening this weekend?"

"No, I haven't." Sam says

"Well I actually got invited to it sooo we should go." He smiles

"I thought you didn't care about "shitty house parties"." Colby laughs