johnnie
in the ambulance, one of the emts keeps trying to make small talk with me but i just sit there in silence.
"you ever been to a facility like this before?" he asks.
silence. i stare out the ambulance window, avoiding eye contact as always. maybe i'm overthinking it but i feel like with eye contact, people can see what i'm thinking.
i don't want people to see what i'm thinking.
"it won't be that scary," he says, taking my vitals. i can tell he's running out of things to say.
"i look weird," i mumble.
"huh?"
i groan in annoyance. "i don't have make up on or my piercings in. i look ridiculous."
"you look great, bud!" he says with full enthusiasm.
i roll my eyes. "you're such a suck up."
i glance over at him and he looks like he's about to cry.
"i know i just tried to kill myself but holy shit stop being so nice!" i shout.
"everything good back there?" the other emt calls from the front. "y-yes," the one in the back says, wiping his eyes.
i close my eyes before muttering, "can we dim the lights?"
"we can't. sorry bud." he sniffles a bit. i groan again once more.
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