Nothins gonna change my world

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My life is disappointment and isolation. No one feels bad and no one will or can. I lie to the face of my suffering to help him feel better. I continue to be disappointed but just stay quiet. It's the only way to go about it. Keep pushing it down keep pushing it back and maybe it'll disappear. It never does. I keep getting let down but it's okay it's okay because if I say anything it's not. I learn to be happy with the little things. Happy with what small things I do have. What do I have? Nothing. I don't have anything. My life is based around him and he more than likely isn't even attracted to me (keeps talking abt girls w muscles. I don't work out. I'm too sick of that. I'm js small. Not muscular. Not toned) and doesn't care abt me (only cares abt how I act outwardly or how I treat him. No he doesn't ask.) idk it's just life. It's just my life. As always.