Platonic love struck
When nerves are struck
Flooded with cortisol
I am in luck because I am next to my friend.
Best friends
Friends are those who will walk you down the aisle.
Will do things for you without being asked
know you
inside and out
Love your small laughs
Platonic love
is the love that lasts
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5:01 11/13/2023
Winter cherry kiss
I need you like the sun needs a cloud
Shadows surround
In a hug.
Out bounds
Feel no heat
Petty fights just hold me tight
In manipulated pulses and notes on a sheet
Peek over the mountainous gates
I keep locked
Pretty passive playfulness what is real vs what is fake
Struggling to live in the moment
Waiting for my tight rope to give
Are you the nett I fall into
Cinched to cigarette ash and lowly slush
In my cheeks a winter flush
Crunch of my boot under fresh snow
Will it stick?
Guess I must
wait until tomorrow
I'll watch the last light glow
Onto
loose
unsteady
snow
Misstep
Falling down
a
hole
Unknown
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11/13/2023
9:05pm
Crush spiral 🌀
I keep seeing you in doses
Now I want to swallow the pill
I keep feeling you in moments
Unforgiving as they will
My thoughts into the universe of an extending plane
Expanding to the multiverse where it's anyone's game
Nights and movies wonder if It would be the same
If we were compatible would you still speak my name.
Barks of seeds planted
Squeaks of petal sprouts
Never blooming in the foreground
Always waiting in the back
Cut to black
Sneak attack
Just snap back-
words baseball cap
you never wear
it's because you like your hair
Fluffy and swung
50's army song
March and off you go
Just be weary of the snow
When your drafted just reach out
To the sweetheart you talk about
In a last life was it me?
In another Univurse instead of
She,
Instead of
I
it was we.
A locket for eternity
Or was it someone else
I'm dusting on your shelf
To be wondered at in chimes
I knew you wanted her
The whole time.
But Mybe in another life
Your love for her was
Mine.
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11/17/2023 11:56pm
Friend texts
I'm writing poems while waiting to board.
But I've got too many rhymes and now I'm just bored
Sitting here checking time. No one talking, half past nine. In front of me is a pretty cute guy. So we sit in silence on our phones letting life pass us by.
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11/14?/2023 - evening walking back to house
Embarrassing: Me
Tree
Leaves stained in amber
Among the bare sillouettes
Waiting for winter when one stands alone
The most beutiful shade
Crystallized in my mind
Snow boots on dry land
Fall through responsibilities
Quicksand
Can't stand
Fall to
Embarrassments
Of poetry in public,
I think that eyes are everywhere
Do they think I am repugnant
Do darting eyes stare?
Surveying me without a care
Why can't I share
without a metaphor
Fog is cloudy
Just one school
I'll leave one day in amber
Dressed
in that dark shade
Will I finally rest,
I'll encase my education
All I've learned in apple spiced lemonade spills on the
sidewalks are crippling
Dodge faces
in my phone
I wonder what
They think of me
Head up in space
Where I have flown
My mind is filled with poetry
Locked up without a face
Pace yourself
Stay yourself
From the outside in I wonder if this is really myself
Sage green cover the streams
Of rivers that flow
Interrupted by a waterfall
Dare to chase the past that broke
Me
Scared of the future
The present
What it means to be me
What it now means
to know me
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Sophomore soliloquies
PoetryIf you've ever felt burdened by being a sophomore in college your not alone. I'm writing these and posting them as I go along. So we can feel less alone together, in a complicated world, within a song. Please feel free to comment, critique, or ask...
