Duster and Yokai

Why is it so hard?

Duster's POV

I sat on my apartment floor staring at the costume I had made for Yokai. I really thought about this whole thing before showing him. I really tried I think.
I continue to stare at it, thinking about what I did wrong. I mean, personally I was really proud..
I picked it up, stood up and threw it in a trash bin that I had standing next to my desk, then I looked into my mirror.
"im sorry Yokai" I said. Honestly I had no idea who I was talking to, because there really wasn't anyone there.
I'm really overreacting I think. All that happened was that his stupid brother showed up n stuff. Could be worse!
I looked at my desk, with all the materials and fabric I had used to make that stupid ugly outfit thing.
I got myself a chair, and sat down in front of my table to start making a new costume for Yokai.
Minutes, hours, maybe even days went by until I managed to get a little something. This could work!
My eyes were fixated on the green and purple thing I made.
What was I doing with my life?
Wasting all these hours to sit down on some stupid table and make stupid things to satisfy stupid people?
No. That's not what I was doing.
I was doing this for myself, for duster. Why is this so difficult to me? Why are the most basic things ever so big all of a sudden?
I felt like everything was overwhelming me, even though I did nothing except sit down and look at something.
Suddenly I looked at the costume I threw in the trashcan next to me. All this heart I poured into it, how hard I made it for me to make that thing, just for it to go to waste because of my own Stupidity.
I got off the chair and kneeled down to pick it up once more. To rip it apart.
How else would I get rid of this stupid work stuff! I need to be happy!! I'm a happy little fella!!
I Tore apart the costume I made, and threw it out of my apartment window.
I guess it was finally gone now. I can be happy I think!! Why isn't this working???
WHY CANT I BE HAPPY.
I started crying for some reason. What am I, some little kid!? Some stupid normal person no one cares about?? Am I really that bad?
I can't even rob a Bank! How am I MEANT TO REACH ANYTHING IN LIFE IF THIS IS WHAT I GET??
I fell onto my bed, closed my eyes and just layed there. I had to think and get myself together.
Get Duster back.
I got a notification on my phone. It was Yokai.
"Heya Duster, we haven't talked in a few days and I wanted to tell you that I don't think I made it clear enough that I really appreciated what you did for me when that whole bank thing happened.. Im happy that you're making a new costume for me dude! Really, I appreciate it.
See you soon?
-Yokai"

I felt better because of this message from Yokai, I worked and worked on this new thing I wanted for him.
SOMEONE had to be proud of me. If I didn't take care of myself, My sidekick would. At least that's what I think sidekicks are for.
I really dont think I could've done everything on my own so far. Nothing. Anything in this cruel world requires two people.
Alone, even the weirdest and simplest things can be overwhelming sometimes. Sometimes I feel like Living is too much, breathing is too hard and Crying is too stupid.

ELLIZ HERE FELLAS :3
Sorry that I didn't continue writing this thing for like three days! WE LOST OUR FIRST PLACE IN THE #DUSTER TAG :C
Get us back up there dudes!!