Love, Pain & Me

Love sick

Love has me on chock hold
Spitting in my mouth
Calling me his bitch
Humiliation is not my kink, in love I never win
And I'm not sure how living is done
Inexperienced, I haven't been here before
I'm pouring over the pages
My braids are a mess
I look like a rag doll
I don't know how I'm alive
Is it oxygen I inhale carbon I exhale
Or is it you or the notion of existence with you
Keeping me together
Keeping me awake

Complete now that I have you
Nothing else matters
No one is more true
Nothing else has kept my production going, kept me in stores
Thinking of you as my world
I'm not crazy
Holding on to you
Like Earth to Sun's gravitational pull
I'm kept together because I am your baby

Making me blue over nothing
Baby take it easy
Don't blame me
Fog over my eyes, loving makes me hazy
I'm flight risk
Shaking, in his world, I exist
He plays for me and I dance to his song
Starlet to his gangsta tone
He's the king I'm a concubine
His is the universe and I'm star dust

Cigarette held to the sky
Extinguished in contempt
"Am I not nice to look at?"
It's funny you have all the money
I'm not sad
I will not cry
Losses I suffer will not stop me from getting high
Don't leave me alone
"DON'T YOU EVER WALK AWAY"
When you say you're done
I fall apart I drift away
I fall and fall and fall in a perpetual motion
I float in depression
I'm an out of season cloth