Love, Pain & Me

I Fall Every Weekend

Lonely on Friday nights, I forget our fights
And think about me in you bed tonight
Your hands on my hips
Name on my lips

I would do as you say honey
Do as you say
Your wish, my command
Your crime, my hand
I'm a djinn in a bottle slave to your wish
All I can say is
While my body floats in the abyss
My soul is tethered to you and it's a bliss

I auction this drape
This love is war I never played
To never defy the orders you give
You ask I breathe, you allow I live

Use me
Use me like a doll
Discard me
Discard me like a sword
Damaged in a war lost
All I can say is
I'll never let go of this

This love might pinch me
This love may bleed
This love is the saddest thing I have ever seen

Countless dabble their hand in this gamble
Fortunately, it's not for all
For me, this love is all I have ever had
The only hand I have ever held
Only heart that ever felt
Only lips I call home
This love isn't what I wished for
This love is not for all
This love is all I deserve
Standing on the platform alone
Going back home
Regretting every step taken
Every moan I let out, I wish it wasn't my own
All I see is his love I don't see his face
His emotional state unhinged
I cut him off without a trace

Nothing compares to that love I had
If I still had him
I wouldn't be on this stage
Waiting for someone to make me fall before it's too late
Have love again like I had that day
If I tell you his name
He'll be a predator
I'll be a prey
Cause he was a lot older than me
And I am just grey
And yet that love was all I had felt
In a long time and for many years to come
That love is all I have going on for me
I can see that I'm blind
Looking for love in the wrong places
I have a mind, one I didn't stole
I'm crying while I'm running
A Fool
To think when I fell, I fell for a lover
If love is one of a kind
Why aren't my men?
This love hates
This love is like
Getting runned down by a train
This love hurts in all the right places
This love is so jealous
This love is salt in rain
How do I call myself a victim of abuse
All I have is love on my brain