Kahani Zindagi Ki

Chapter 27: Kabir's realization

Kabir: KYA! Kya baat kar rahi hai aap! Arre unhone mujhe khud kaha tha!

Naina: Ha..unhone tumhe kaha zaroor tha..par har baat jo kahi jaati hai woh sach thodi hoti hai?

Kabir: unhone mujhe bataya tha ki unhe bhi adopt kar liya hai aur adopt hone ke 6 months ke baad unhe wapis bhej diya kyunki woh aur unki new family ka theek nahi baith raha tha..

Naina: Yeh baat poora jhooth hai..baat yeh hai ki unhone tumse yeh sab sirf isiliye kaha taki tum apne naye family ke sath chale jao..unhone dekha ki tum kitne khush dikh rahe the unke sath, aur unhe pata tha ki tum ek bohot happy life jee sakte the unke sath..isiliye unhone jhooth kaha tumse..aur tumhe waha bhej diya aur poore time woh adoption center me hi the..

Kabir: Kya?! Isiliye, unn 6 months me jab bhi mai unke family se milne ki baat karta tha tab woh kehte the ki aaj nahi, ya phir kehte the ki woh log bahar gaye hai, ya koi na koi bahana bana dete the..

Naina: Hmm..Ab tum hi batao, agar unhe tumse pyar nahi hota toh woh aisa jhooth kyu bolte? Woh tumhari life better hote hue kyu dekhna chahte?

Kabir looked at Naina stunned. He was answerless, this was a new fact that he had just discovered. He looked at Naina, Naina could spot guilt and pain in his eyes. Naina knew she had to be soft with him, he didn't even have the knowledge about the reality.

Naina: Dekho Kabir..mai maanti hu ki unhone tumse milna kam kar diya dheere dheere, par iska yeh matlab toh nahi na ko woh lobi ho gaye the!

Kabir: Par unka aana kam bhi tab hi hua jab papa ko tabiyat kharab ho gayi aur humne mummy papa ki FD todh di..aur phir mumma ne hi bataya tha ki jabse humne FD todhi, tab se woh aana band kar diye, kam aane lage..aur phir hummare views bhi match hona band hi gaye..woh meri har baat ko kaatne lage..

Naina: Kabir..accha imagine karo apne aap ko Rajveer sir ki jagah par, apne chote bhai se milne jaana hai while training in the academy, possible hai?

Kabir: Nahi..bohot difficult..

Naina: Theek hai, ab situation 2, tum ab ek officer ho, tumhe duty ke orders mil chuke hai, toh ab milna possible hai?

Kabir: Nahi..agar orders mile toh kaise jaa sakte hai..

Naina: Theek hai, ab imagine karo, ki tum sarhad par ho, ek battalion ko lead karte hue, jab tumhare baki ki battalion duty par hai, missions chal rahe hai, tab milne jaa sakte ho poori battalion ko without leadership ke chodkar? Jab baaki juniors waha ho aur leader hi gayab ho sakta hai?

Kabir: Nahi..

Naina: Par tab bhi, jab bhi unhe chatting milti thi woh aa jaate the tumhare paas milne ke liye..do posting ke beech me aa jaate the tumse milne..yaha report karne aate the apne mission ke baare me tab aa jaate the tumse milne..tum hi batao, agar unhe sirf tumhare paiso se pyar tha toh woh humesha apne kaam ke beech me se time nikal kar kyu aate tumse milne? Nahi aate na woh? Agar unhe tumse sirf apna matlab poora karna tha toh woh itni mehnat nahi karte! Aur tumhare papa ki tabiyat kharab hona aur unka academy ke liye accept hona dono sanjyog se ek sath ho gaye jiske wajah se woh tumse milna kam kar diye..ab isme tum hi batao, Rajveer sir ki kya galti hai? Kya iss se yeh prove hota hai ki woh tumse pyar nahi karte? Ya yeh prove hota hai ki woh tumse pyar karte hai?

Kabir just looked at Naina while the realization struck him hard. He just turned his head to the other direction as in to avoid eye contact with Naina. Naina handed him his medicines and went to fetch water.

Kabir: Yeh.. yeh baat toh..baat toh sahi hai..par..par mere parents mujhse jhoot kyu bolenge? Par inki baat bhi sahi hai..jinhone mujhe aapne aap se zyada pyar kiya tha..woh mujhse achanak se kyu pyar karna band kar denge..I can't believe it..aaj tak jo mai inpar gussa hua..aaj tak jo kuch bhi maine unke baare me soocha woh sab jhoot tha..woh sab ek misunderstanding thi..yaha sirf ek month keliye hai hum..aur iss ek month me se 3-4 din jaa chuke hai already..mere paas abhi din hai..thoda time toh lagega hi unse wapis se baat karne me..par mujhe karna hai..mujhe maafi maangni hai..mujhe apne saare words ke liye maafi maangni hai..mujhe apne behaviour ke liye maafi maangni hai..woh saare pal jo maine apne bevkoofi ke wajah se khoye hai, unke liye maafi maangni hai..unhe kabhi bhi bhaiya na bolne ki promise ko todhna hai..unhe maine na jaane kitna hurt kiya hoga..I'm really the worst brother 😔

Naina returned and saw Kabir sitting and thinking something carefully, she touched his arm and he looked at her in shock. Naina realized that he was unaware of her presence as he was deep in his thoughts. Kabir took the medicines and due to the medication he felt sleepy and soon later he slept of.

Naina: I really hope ki meri baaten dimag me ghusi ho aur koi na koi effect zaroor kare..nahi ki toh sach me bail buddhi wala insaan hai yeh!

Soon, when Kabir was asleep, Naina was sitting in the outer room waiting for Rajveer to return. She heard footsteps followed with the door opening and Rajveer entering the room. He saw Naina outside and understood that Kabjr was asleep. He quietly closed the door and stepped inside.

Rajveer: Ha gaya Naina?

Naina: Ji sir..thank you..

Rajveer: Naina tumne kaha tha isiliye tumhe yaha bulaya tha Kabir ka dhyan rakhne ke liye..tumhe baat karke koshish karni thi na Kabir ko realize karwane ki ki mai bura nahi aur jo sab woh mere baare me soochta hai woh galat hai..par Naina please don't be sad or surprised agar usse koi farak na pade ya phir woh na samjhe..itne saalo tak uske dimag me uske parivaar valo ne mere baare uske andar jo sab bhara hai woh itne aasaani se mit nahi payega..maine toh ab koshish chod di hai Naina..actually ab mujhe aur takat nahi usse samjhane ki..mai ek tarah se haar gaya hu Kabir ke saamne, ab woh mere baare me kya soochta hai, kya samajhna chahta hai, woh samajh sakta hai..par mai usse abhi bhi pehle ki tarah pyar karta hu, aur karta rahunga..akhir kaar hum dono bhai hai..aur sach toh yeh hi hai ki mera iss duniya me apna sirf ek Kabir hi hai..hummare parivaar se sirf hum do hi toh hai..

Naina: Rajveer sir..thank you ki aapne mujhe baat karne diya..mai jaanti hu ki aap nahi chahte the ki mai baat karu Kabir se aapke baare me kuch bhi par mere extreme pushing ke wajah se aapne mujhe yeh ek chance diya baat karne ka..ab woh safal hoga ya nahi woh toh time hi batayega..

Rajveer: Now Naina, as we had decided earlier, no second chance at trying to make Kabir know this truth..mai nahi chahta ki usse ab mere baare me koi nayi galat phehmi ho jaye..abhi jaise chal raha hai waise hi chalne do..now go to your classes!

Naina nodded and left. Rajveer closed the door behind her and took a deep breath and sat down to do some work. A tear escaped Kabir's eyes upon overhearing the conversation. Kabir wiped his tear and spoke in his mind.

Kabir: Rajveer bhaiya itna pyar karte ho mujhse aap aur aaj tak maine aapko kitna bura, kitna ganda samjha..aap toh ab thak tak gaye ho mujhe samjha samjha kar par mere dimag me itni si baat nahi ghussi..mai aapko aaj tak apne life ka ek villain maanta raha par aap tohmere life ke hero the, pehle bhi aur aaj bhi..mai itna ganda hu ki aapke baat samajh nahi paya aur aapne bohot koshish karne phir baad me mujhse umeed tak chod di ki mai aapki baat samajh paunga..I'm sorry Rajveer bhaiya, I'm the worst brother..