Forever

Hangover

CRYSTAL'S POV:

I rub Theo's back whilst he leans over the toilet. I'm still angry at him but I also can't help feeling kinda bad. He is really pale and I think he's probably gonna be like this for a while. I sigh and look away, glancing at Sophia's door again. She hasn't seemed to hear anything and I was glad about that. She doesn't deserve to see her father this way.

15 MINS LATER

After a while he finally seems well enough to leave the bathroom. I head downstairs and grab a bucket from the kitchen and I make him head downstairs. I tell him I don't want to sleep with him tonight because I'm still angry and he's drunk. I turn all of the lights off and frown as I close our bedroom door. I turn back to our bed and I lie down, sighing. After a second the tears come flowing out of my eyes and I feel like Theo is changing.. I'm not sure if it's because of his new job, but he needs to take a break and look after himself.. He can't go out and get drunk like this again... I wipe my eyes, sobbing still. This continues on for a while, until I finally fall asleep. I cried myself to sleep.

THE NEXT DAY

I open my eyes slightly and I glance around the room for a second. I blink a couple of times before I sit up and rub my eyes, grabbing my glasses on the bedside cabinet. I also check my phone and I see it's 9AM. I stretch, going to my wardrobe and grabbing my dressing gown. I then head downstairs, not looking forward to seeing Theo.

Sophia is still asleep. She kept telling me yesterday in her own little words that she missed her father, and she wanted him to come back home. But to be honest I don't want her to see him like this - drunk and messed up - because he should be more presentable..

I yawn as I head into the kitchen and glance at the sofa as I turn on the kettle. I sigh once again and I shake my head, still feeling slightly angry. It's his day off today so thankfully he can't leave the house and I can try and take care of him and his hangover. I still don't know how much he drank and I really want to know..

I hear him as he begins to yawn behind me. I try and keep my back turned to him because really, I don't want to speak to him just yet. He made me feel furious last night and I'm not even sure he knows what happened properly. I pour the water into my cup and I grab a tea bag, beginning to mix it.

I hear Theo walk up behind me, and he sounds like he's stumbling a little bit. He taps on my shoulder. "Hey.. Crystal." he says, his world still a little slurred but they were much more understandable.

I decide to ignore him as I continue making my tea, a frown on my face. I'm sorry Theo.. but you've done wrong this time..

I head into the living room and I can feel his eyes on me, confused. I sit on the sofa and I turn on the tv, switching through the channels. I can hear Theo groaning in the kitchen. I glance back for a second whilst he isn't looking and he's holding onto his head. This must be his hangover symptoms. All I can say is that it's his fault he drank so much..

THEO'S POV:

My head is throbbing and my stomach is hurting so bad. I drank a lot last night but I didn't realise I drank that much.. I can't really remember much but all I can remember is going to a pub with Toby. I don't know how I got home or what happened afterwards. I hold onto my stomach as I glance over at Crystal. She had seemed to be staring at me. She turns right back around, rolling her eyes and still playing with the remote. I don't think she's gonna talk to me today, as hard as I try. She's normally a really sensitive girl and she hasn't really done this before... She has to be really angry.

I feel bad.. I know I messed up and I really need to make up for it.. But this stomach ache is too much right now. I can feel something coming up my throat. I run up the stairs clumsily and straight into the bathroom, leaning over the toilet. I try and throw up but nothings coming. The feeling is horrible in my throat and it feels like burning. I groan in pain on the bathroom floor, my headache getting worse and my stomach churning. It's unbearable..

AFTERWARDS

I stay on the bathroom floor for a while, leaning over the toilet at times. I have threw up twice since I came up here. I think it's safe to say I won't ever be getting this drunk ever again.. Even if I'm in a bad place.

I can feel myself wanting to cry for no reason and I just overall feel like shit. Thankfully, today is one of my days off so I can just chill out, but my mind is all over the place and I can't think properly. I've been feeling like this a lot recently, just overall sad and anxious about everything. It's affected my teaching career and everything and even some teachers are asking what's up. They notice the bags under my eyes and ask me if I've gotten enough sleep.. It's just too much to deal with at the moment and I don't want to even be here right now.

I hear the tv blaring downstairs and I just want to block out the world and be on my own. I want to cry, I want to be alone, I want to...

I want to die...