From here to eternity

1. pain and longing

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| A R U S H I |
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It was a whole chaos in the house as it was the 8th of September Vedika's birthday, I don't like being here, I moved out when I was 18 for MBBS because it was my dream as well as excuse to get away from these toxic people whom everyone calls family, I came here yesterday for some sign on documents and my sister forced me to stay to celebrate her birthday I really didn't want to but my dadi taunt me saying "ha ab hamare sath thodi accha lagega ise itni badi jo ho gyi h bahar ki hawa mil gyi h ise ab kya bahn kya dadi" (yes now she won't like being with us she is grown up now, she has tasted the air of outside world, now what sister what grandma"

she is so dramatic but I always don't want to go against her, i kept quiet and stayed here.

how beautiful this house looks right now, it is decorated with lights, flowers, candles, balloons and all but the thing which hurt me is no one has ever celebrated my birthday I don't even think they remember it, it was always my dream to have a great and memories day on my birthday, yes to talk about memorious, it indeed was when it was my 17th birthday and papa locked me inside the store room for the whole day just because I went out without permission, and on my 18th birthday, dadi and chachi beated me just because I ruin Vedika's dress which I never did,
it's okay I will never let myself become weak because of others, I wiped a lone tear which came out without permission. I was standing on the balcony and lost in my thoughts when I heard my aunt shouting

"Arushi Arushi ARUSHI" she shouted i turned my heels and faced her
"Are you deaf or what can't you hear I am calling you since eternity?" She said
I sighed
"What's the matter now?" I asked
"Come and help Vedika to get ready"
I nodded and followed her to vedika room

And saw her dressed in a beautiful black dress I still remember how my aunt and dadi burst out at me for wearing black at my brother's birthday and now they gifted her the same and told her to wear it.

Hypocrisy on it's peak, Or partiality

I was still in my pjs.
"Why are you looking homeless?" Vedika asked "wear something good or what will the guests think" she said
I rolled my eyes

"Thanks for telling I was going to be there with this only on but now as you have enlighten me I will wear something good" I gave her a sarcasm

" Now enough of your nonsense arushi get her makeup done now" my aunt shouted

"Why doesn't she now how to do it herself?" I asked and here my sister's drama started

"Aru please you do a wonderful job with makeup please do it it's my birthday I don't want to do anything today please" as if you do anything the other day I mentally think and scoff

I started doing her makeup then hair it took me almost 1 and half hour

"Done" I said
"Hm, it looks okay but it would be more good if you would have curled then and put red lipstick instead of nude well anyway nothing can be done now, you can go" she said looking at herself

Instead of involving myself at any drama I moved out of the room to get ready because I know in this house no one is on my side and in the end I'll be the one to blame, my aunt came and grabbed my shoulder

"Listen wear something simple don't you dare to get the spotlight to yourself it's my daughter's day" she spittted with hate

My eyes became a little moist but I didn't allow my tears to come and wanted to speak for myself I released myself from her grip

"Listen I never did the thing for which you always blamed me but yes I will wear the dress I will like and you are no one to tell me what to do and what not to okay? I have my own freaking mind to understand what to wear it's not my fault that I look good even in the simplest outfit" I said and moved from there and not before eyeing my aunt and seeing her face which was stunned and burning with rage as it was the first time I talked back to her

She can't control me always
I moved to my room and got ready in a suit it is not like I don't wear Western I wear it but here i only wear traditional because my aunt and dadi will taunt me saying here she is getting so much modern and all I just wanna be in peace and tomorrow itself will fly back to Delhi,

I got out of the room and went to the hall on my way, I met my brother who was busy on his phone, it was awkward to talk to him after so many time.
"Hi" I said
He just glanced at me for a sec then moved his eyes to his phone and said

"hmm" I was a little hurt as he always treated me coldly but I did everything i could for him.

I will lie if I say I am not jealous of someone who has a proper loving family.

Many of my friends always get jealous of me for being born in a prosperous family but only I know what it feels like.
My own family consider me as a bad omen and treat me as an outcast in my own house

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The function started, they all laughed while cutting the cake, took pictures danced and here I was standing at the corner far away even from the guests
looking at them with longing, not even a single one came and asked for me.

Do I really deserve this?

I smiled painfully and moved to the garden and sat down on the bench, there is peace here with no one who surrounds me.

I was lost in my thoughts when I felt someone tapping on my shoulder I turned to see my father.

"Come to the study room I want to talk to you" he said and I started following him, I was nervous as he really don't talk to me but what happened now, what's the matter
We came into the study and he sat down and also gestured for me to do the same
I sat down
"What happened papa?" I asked
He sighed before saying something which shocked the hell out of me

"I fixed you marriage"

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