Trans!Phil FTM!Phil 2009!Phan in a 2011 setting. They live down the road from each other.
Warnings- Mild Transphobia(?), Self hate, mildly implied suicidal thoughts.
Words: 1647
The video above isn't really related to the oneshot, but it was one of the song's I was listening to while writing this, so
(Please do not read this if you find any types of transphobia, suicidal hints or self-hate triggering. Also, if you're a bigoted poop face that "hates transgender people" then I'd advise not to read this, either. Stay safe kiddo's x)
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Phil's POV
I sat across from Dan in our usual Starbucks booth, I'd asked him to meet me solely on the fact I felt it was time to talk to him about something I'd been thinking over for about 5 years.
I looked up from the cup I was intensely staring at while trying to figure out what to say, to see Dan staring out of the window with a thoughtful, but happy look on his face.
I took a shaky breath, running my fingers through the roots of my waist-length hair I hated so passionately.
"Dan?" I said quietly, the tapping sound he had been causing with his knuckles on the table stopped as he looked at me, clearly listening to what I had to say. I'd always liked that about Dan, he would always listen to whatever I was saying, no matter what it was.
"Phillipa?"(I couldn't think of another typically 'female' name that could have been shortened to Phil, don't hate me)
I cringed at the use of my name, taking an uneven breath as I sat my drink back on the table, after picking it up distractedly.
"I- Dan, I'm... I don't want you to hate me-"
"Why? Did you kill somebody?"
I shook my head
"Kick a puppy or small child?"
I shook my head again
"Then you have nothing to worry about, what is it?" he spoke softly, taking one of my hands in his. "You're my best friend, I couldn't hate you"
"Dan, I'm I-... I'm Trans... Transgender... Sorry" I mumbled as I felt a lump rise in my throat.
I. Was. Not. Going. To. Cry.
"It's okay"
"Sorry... Sorry, I know you probably hate me now and its okay if you do and I can leave if you never want to speak to me again and-"
"Hey, hey, stop it. It's okay"
I nodded, sighing heavily, only feeling slightly relieved.
"So, Mr I-don't-want-you-to-hate-me. I'm Dan, nice to meet you" Dan smiled at me, opening his hand as if to offer a handshake.
"I'm P-Phil..." I mumbled, shaking Dan's hand and smiling weakly.
"So, what do you say, how about we go get a haircut, Phil? It's on me" Dan suggested, finishing the rest of his drink before I answered. I gave a short nod, smiling as we got up and walked to the hairdressers Dan always goes to.
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