Darkest Light - COMPLETE (bxb story tagalog/english)

Chapter 21

I went in his room and he was smoking in the veranda. Ang layo ng tingin nya, ni hindi nya ko napansin. Nilagay ko na lang yung vase sa side table nya. Saka dinikit yung sinulat ko. The writing is poorly done pero sa tingin ko naman mababasa nya.

To Miguel,

Miguel sorry for everything.

~ Alex

I look at him one last time before I go out silently. Pumunta na ko sa kwarto ko para matulog.

"Alex?" I was half asleep when I heard Miguel's voice.. He fix the comforter on me and he kissed my forehead. Ewan ko.. usually I would wake up and push him away but now I was fine with it.

"Salamat sa bulaklak, kahit nagsugat-sugat nanaman yung mga kamay mo. You don't have to appologize for anything, Alex. Hindi mo kasalanan to." He was silent for awhile until I heard sniffling.. and smelt cigarette mentol from his breath.

"I love you, babe.. Miss na miss na kita. I want to hug you and kiss you but I can't because you'll cry.. Ayoko ng nakikita kang umiiyak. This is all my fault. Kung hindi ako umalis noon at pinilit kang sabihin sakin ang totoo.. this wouldn't happened. Ako.. you only think of me.. paano ka naman, Alex? I know you are so afraid to go back to America. I fucking know.. pero iniwan parin kita.. kasalanan ko.. I'm sorry.. I'm so sorry.. bumalik ka na sakin ha? Kahit gano katagal, maghahantay ako. This time, I won't leave you.. no matter what happens.. I won't. Kahit ikamatay ko pa. Alex.. Mahal na mahal.. " He calmed his shuddering breath. ".. na mahal kita."

I felt him kiss my forehead again and left my room quietly. When he did, I opened my eyes and felt my own tears fell. Miguel..

I lay awake for hours until I know I couldn't sleep anyway. Tumayo na lang ako.. I need Miguel..

Pumunta ako sa kwarto nya and saw him asleep on his bed. Nakabukas pa yung isang lamp kaya nakikita ko sya. Sumampa na lang ako sa kama sabay pasok sa ilalim ng duvet. Ni hindi nagising siya nagising. He just groan in his sleep. I was now face to face with him. Even in his sleep he looks restless. Halata pa din yung eyebags nya.. humaba na rin buhok nya, pero mas mahaba na yung akin. He looks paler.. Para syang magkakasakit. I sighed at his chest. I know I am trembling pero kakayanin ko. Miguel is shirtless. His skin felt so warm. Tama.. si Miguel to.. he's my Miguel.

"Miguel.." I hug onto him and he woke up like that. Nagulat pa sya ng nakita nya ko.

"A-Alex? What are you doing here? Did something happened? May nightmares ka ba ule? Are you feeling sick? What happen?" Miguel asked so fast. I just smiled and shook my head.

"Nothing. I'm fine. Dito muna ako ha. I can't sleep in my room" I nuzzle onto his chest and he breathe out.

"Can I.. hug you?" He asked and I nod. He slowly wrap his arms around me as if testing if I would freak out but instead I just felt so warm and secure. So safe.. kasi si Miguel ang yumayakap sakin.

"Miguel.. salamat. Wag mong papabayaan yung sarili mo. Malulungkot ako.. if you got sick."

"A-Alex? Did you say.. that?" When he look down on me, I look up at him and he stilled.

"You're already hugging me. I'm waiting for my kiss, Miguel." His eyes widened and autmatic tears flood his eyes.

"O-okay lang.. ba?" He asked, his voice shaky. I nodded and closed my eyes. He lean forward and when his lips brush mine, I stiffened making Miguel pull away.