Darkest Light - COMPLETE (bxb story tagalog/english)

Chapter 17

3 months later.

"Once upon a time. May isang lalaki! Mahal na mahal nya raw ako! Mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal....!"

"How is the patient, doctor? Is he still talking to his imaginary friend?" A nurse asked the old doctor.

"Yes. The language he speaks seems to be from the Philippines. He has Pilipino blood, I guess. He's still has haphephobia and parasomnia and is getting worst everyday. He is now awake for 28 hours so give him some sleeping pills later."

Old doctor says to the old nurse...

"Okay, doctor."

"Miguel! Ano ba? Sabi ko naman sayo wag kang sumunod!"

Miguel has a big grin on his face. He kept following me! He kept running after me!!!

"Mahal mo ko diba?"

Miguel nodded.

"Oh, edi hayaan mo na muna kasi ako. Sunod ka ng sunod. Sabi mo kasi hindi mo ko iiwan. Kaya ba? Hmmm.... eh bakit ka umalis nung nahanap mo ko? Bakit? Kasi ba.. Kasi ba may kasama akong lalaki? Ginawa ko lang naman yun para bumalik ka sa Pinas.. your mom told me to give you up.. but it hurts so much."

"Alex it's time for sleep." My dead eyes rose to see the old nurse's smile. I shook my head at her and when she reach her hand out, I quickly back away and hug my body. Curling up in a ball. Nasa loob ako ng closet kasi nandun si Miguel. Magkasama kami.

Ayaw nya lang magpakita sa iba.

Ako lang nakakakita sa kanya.

"Relax. Alex please, I won't touch you." I was breathing too fast.. anong nasa kamay ko? Buhok? Nahila ko yung buhok ko..

"Doc! He's pulling out his hair! Doctor he's bleeding sir!" The old nurse run out of the old hospital room.

"Miguel oh. Natanggal." Pinakita ko kay Miguel yung buhok sa kamay ko. May dugo na yung mga kuko ko kada kalmot ko sa balat ko.

Miguel lost his smile and he looked mad.

"Bakit? Ano bang ginawa ko? Sorry na.. patawad.. patawarin mo na kasi ako!!!!!"

Ano na bang nagyare?

Ang sabi nila..

I've gone insane.

Nagsimula lang naman to ng bumalik ako sa America. Bakit ba ako bumalik? Was I afraid? Dahil ba may nangyaring ganino ng dahil sakin?

My Grandfather. He's dead. Nalaman ko lang ng bumalik ako. Why did I left? The moment I left Miguel, gusto ko kagad bumalik. Pero ako kasi ang may kasalanan. Natakot akong maging dahilan ng pagkakalayo ng loob nilang magina. Natakot akong maging pabigat. But I disclosed all that idea from my first night in New York.

I almost lost it.. I run and hide and called out for Miguel. Uuwi na ko sabi ko.. tinawagan ko si Miguel and he was so mad at me for leaving. He said he looked for me everywhere. He said he'll come for me so I waited.. but then Mrs. Howards called.

She said.. to break all the connection I have with Miguel..

It was the only way I could repay her for saving me before.. she says.

So..

So I payed a man to slept with me. I let him touch me.. but I never let him go all the way.. only Miguel has the right..

Miguel saw that man and me.. naked.. and kissing on my bed. He punched the man.. he almost punched me when I stopped him... and he left just like that. Without a word.. nothing. Lolokohin ko ang sarili ko kung sasabihin kong hindi ako nasaktan nung umalis sya. It hurts... too much.. Ni hindi sya humingi ng dahilan. He didn't asked nor cursed me. He just turn his back on me.. and left.

The man I hired touched me.. and I freak out.

All my fears came crashing down. Miguel left.. and I felt so cold.. all the memories I have here in America were all that was left in my head and nothing more but just that.. and the name.. Miguel..

I screamed at the man..

Don't touch me..

Don't touch me!!!

He was not a bad man.. naawa sya sakin.. he spoke about someone like me, who go around doing things like this.. until they loose their mind..

Like me..

He's the one who took me here in the facility and I never saw him again but Miguel showed up again..

But the others can't see him.

He never touches me..

I'm comfortable with him.