SENSITIVE STRINGS

Cocktail Harp

The smell of the rain sparkled through my senses,
As I looked around to the pink strings of wisdom, love, heartbreak, lust and greed,
All standing around me,
dancing with shades of pink in their system running like venom,

And I saw the pool of clouds,
And I saw
The people I hate,
The people I love,
The gods that I could touch and the gods that still remained purely in the imagination's crust,

But you blured my hazel lenses,
And you talked to me like I'm the most beautiful person in the world,
And you walked with me making me feel warm and furled,

And to the cocktail that I poured in my glass out of jealousy,
Never ever hurt me,
Only compelled to comfort me,
And If I had known that white lies would have turned black under the sunny-roof I would have never given up,
And if I had even a sign pointing out to the obvious crimes and the red collar that they had put up,

I would never pour the cocktail down,
Not a fairytale,
They try to topple my crown,

The picture perfect kiss in my picture perfect gown,
became a bloodkissed dress,
What a mess,

Their poor functions of tonality,
Obscure and insecure mentality,
Moved me from within,
Shifted the system,
So I cut you out in a flash of a moment,

And you're not welcome to my birthday party,
You're not invited to my dreams,
Stay aloft all the problems that I would have to recieve,

Give me a way, to lock you out,
Because you know that I can't,
Alcohol in my system and my brains making me want to dance,
But you would never take advantage of me baby,
I know what you need,

A real love that I can give you,
Once I only find me,

And you would leave them all behind,
Leave them all behind just to come back home,
And you would touch my hands and go to bed,
Like I am stitched into your bones,

And when I would talk to you,
You would never look at the sky,
Looking in my eyes you would say,
"Let me stay with you tonight"

And I would smile like I won some kind of lottery,
What a spree,
Of neverending clowning and a full bloom mockery,
Of lovers that fall apart,
And it's sad, but it's funny,
When we sit in each other's cars,
And stare at our faces like we don't even care,

We would blast out the radio,
"Summertime Sadness" would just end,

And I would drink it up like autumn,
Dance all night and day,
Walk around the garden,
It is so hard to explain,

But when you're in love,
You're just in love,

And you heard the rumours about me,
You laughed and called them cheesy,
My mind was running out of hands,
Anxiety sprinting in my veins,
But then I come back to you looking over at me,
And I swear,
Never have I ever felt like this,

Is this what they call love?
Are we like "Us"?

They say it's all about trust,
But the love that is ours, never rusts,
And we always sit down on dinner table and talk about our feelings,
My friends look at me and laugh,
"What the fuck are you healing?"
But they still care,
They wouldn't dare,
Cause they also remember it all too well,

But I am better than before,
Holding down on my pain,
It's a natural to feel,
So I just let it go away,

And I play my songs on the cocktail harp,
The pink strings lighting up to life
And you would just sit there sitting up,
Listening to me sing all the night