Seeking Gaston Lynx Esquivel

Chapter 46

He looked at me, shocked with what he heard.

I looked at him carefully and breathed in deeply.

"Fuck…" He cursed to himself again then closed his eyes tightly.

He is too over reacting—No. He isn't over reacting.

Tuluyang nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa kanya. He might be thinking things differently all this time!

"You thought I was his real mother, didn't you?" I calmly asked.

He looked at me wide eyed.

Well, hindi ko siya masisisi kung ganoon ang nasa isipan niya. Lalo na at si Auntie pa mismo ang nagsabi sa kanya sa tawag.

He licked his lips and slowly nodded his head.

"He is my little brother, but he calls me Mama." I explained again.

He nodded again. "I've been restraining myself from texting and calling you since your Auntie and I talked. I thought you have a boyfriend, a fiance…" Mahinang sambit nito sa akin. "And I thought...you were in a relationship with the father of your child."

Kaagad akong umiling sa kanya. "Calyx doesn't want me to be in a relationship."

He looked me seriously in the eyes. Maya-maya pa ay napahinga siya ng malalim. He looked so relieved. His expression was way calmer this time than before.

"I can work on that…" He murmured something to himself.

"May tanong ka pa ba?"

He remained serious looking at me. "So you didn't have any relationship after…me?" Mahinang tanong niya sa akin.

Kahit naguguluhan ay umiling ako sa kanya. Mas lalong namang nagliwanag ang mukha niya.

"Ako rin! Ako rin! I didn't have any relationship after you either!" He suddenly sounded so energetic this time.

I looked at him weirdly. Why has he gotten so weird these last few days?

He fixed his expression after getting no reaction from me. He cleared his throat.

"I mean…I got busy with my studies that's why." Mahina ulit nitong sambat sa akin. He can't even look at me.

"It is already nine. You should go home." May pasok pa kami bukas at maaga akong gigising.

He licked his lips, looked at me again seriously then nodded his head.

I opened the door for him at kaagad naman siyang sumunod. Muli niya akong hinarap habang hawak-hawak ko naman ang handle ng pintuan sa likod.

"Please, lock your door properly." His gentle eyes looked at me.

Para akong nabahag ng makita kung gaano kalambot ang mga mata niya sa akin. It reminds me of the old...Gaston that I knew. He always looked at me like that. Nakapanghihina ng kalooban.

I unconsciously nodded at him without breaking my eyes on him.

He locked his lips. "Goodnight, Carmella."

"Goodnight too…" Marahan kong sagot.

Nang hindi ko na nakayanan ang lambot ng mga tingin niya ay umiwas na ako ng tingin. The air kinda became awkward for me, but his eyes remained gentle at me.

"Isasara ko na ang pinto…" Why does is suddenly became so awkward.

"Okay...goodnight again…"

I couldn't look him in the eyes and I quickly closed my door. Nang tuluyan kong masara ang pintuan ko ay saka lang ako nakahinga ng maluwag.