'Why I HATE the Color Green.'
This is a novel about my life, and suffering through bad relations, not only dating relationships but relationships with family and friends. Troubles with school, and how I identify affect normal life.
How life as a tr...
Me, Carson, and Raven are all dating. I like Raven more than Carson. I feel like she understands me more than anyone else out there.
I hate this though, why can't Carson just be a man and choose who he wants to be with instead of dating two at once? It's obvious that Carson is Raven's favorite, and that Raven is Carson's favorite. I don't know why I'm in this relationship still.
I can't call Carson either, he's at a birthday party. Raven is there too. I think it's for Lily? I don't really know her, but for some reason she doesn't like me.
She still doesn't.
I never really talked to her so.. I don't know why. I don't wanna ask though.
A: "hey wyd?"
C: "I'm still at the party" C: "Why"
A: "I don't know " A: "where is the party at?"
C: "Lilys house."
A: "oh ok"
After that conversation, I don't remember much. We got into some stupid argument about whatever. He said something like "Raven's laughing so hard right now" , and I was all like "ok idc"
I'm telling Cate all of this.. and I- I don't know why we're even arguing. He's probably showing all of this friends there and those two are laughing about it- and and.. tears. Tears are almost streaming down my face, my hands are shaking. I'm with my cousin; we were taking a bath together. It's not weird. We have bathing suits on.
She's saying that she can have people fuck him up- and.. I don't know.
Cate posted something on her story and.. Carson replied with this.
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And then we broke up. Again. Because apparently I'm a "pick me" and that he "never liked me" and he "only liked raven."
I hate him.
I really do,
I hate him! Why is he always like this?
Why do I keep trying and trying to make things right between me and him? Even me and Raven. Why?
Isn't this stupid? I love them both though, a lot. Really. I do.
Maybe they don't like me back. They don't. I know they don't.
I don't know. My brain can't process anything correctly. My heart hurts.
I just try to enjoy this sleepover with my cousin because I can't do this anymore.
