It All Started With Hate

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I nodded, feeling my grip on insanity lessen just enough to keep my mind from turning.

Levi nodded at me, next. "Personally, I think you're batshit, but not this time, no." That earned my chuckle, and Levi's joined before he shrugged. "I'm mostly helping because I'm sick of your dad's narcissistic shit and because I'm sick of seeing you lounge around town, all depressed and bitchy."

I bit back a curse as I glanced between the two. "Is that a pathway to another corny ass, breakup joke?"

Kade, specifically, had given me a total of seven jokes that made me want to break his neck, but I didn't, simply because I knew I deserved the shit talk. I had been far more worst and obnoxious to him when he and Kimberly broke up nearly two years ago.

I wasn't proud of it now, because personally, I would have killed him if he did this shit to me, but I had called up another girl to his house for him to fuck in order to get his mind off of the breakup with Kimberly. It ended up getting the air knocked out of my chest from how hard he punched me when he showed up at my doorstep that night.

It had pissed me off since I thought I had done a good thing and been a good friend by sending her there. I hadn't understood why he wasn't able to just fuck another girl, drink another beer, or do quite literally anything else to get over just one single girl.

Now, though, I understood it. More than anything, I did. And, I also understood that karma was a bitch. That fucker had been coming extra strong for me ever since Norris came into my life.

Kade smirked, throwing an arm over the sofa as he looked to me. "Nah, not this time. We're just being honest." I could just see the snarky son of a bitch rolling back another joke, but he had finally taken sympathy on me, I guess. "Who would have thought that attitude of yours could run even deeper than it already does, Vaudest?"

I rolled my eyes, but made no attempt to correct it since it was true. I had barely left my house, but when I did, then whoever and whatever was in my way was the barer of my bullshit for the day.

Kade and Levi were the ones to come over to check my pulse, as well as with food and beer. Levi took care of Fang and his needs for me, and Kade...well he was Kade.

By that, I meant he had thrown a beer bottle at my head when I refused to eat the pizza they brought over. When that didn't even work, Levi locked all three of us in a room together until my nerves hit their limit, and I finally ate the food.

For the first couple of days, I tried my hardest to stay away from them, though. Not because I didn't like them, which is always, but not this time, specifically.

It was because every fucking thing reminded me of Maggie. It wasn't any help that one of her best friends were dating one of my best friends. It was all just a fucked entanglement that I couldn't avoid.

I already had my ambition running strong, and once I told Kade and Levi, they offered their help, immediately. I expected them to make me work for it, but it was the opposite.

Instead, they stayed with me for hours one night, retrieving and organizing the documents against my father, as well as helping me understand the timeline between Maggie and I's breakup.

I didn't want to bother them with it since it was a fuck-ton of shit to cover, but Kade had made, not asked, but made me let them help. When I mentioned that I wasn't sure of it minutes before I was supposed to get to his house, he had called to curse me out.

They claimed that I was an ass without Maggie & Kimberly and Raven claimed that Maggie was an ass without me. It made sense.

Just the thought of her had my chest cracking in half without any warning beforehand, though. Darkness was all I knew without her, now. She was my light before all else.