Dark Days In Secret

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Twenty minutes later my phone vibrated and I saw he texted saying he was here

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Twenty minutes later my phone vibrated and I saw he texted saying he was here. I grabbed my purse and a sweater, put my shoes on and went out the door quietly. They wouldn’t be waking up until much later anyway. Those boys love their sleep
I got into the car and he looked so tired still and it makes me feel really bad
*I’m sorry I woke you up and dragged you out here. But I really appreciate you coming to pick me up* tears watering up my eyes
*It’s no problem at all Nyx. I’m always happy to help. But I will say this, you gotta buy me a coffee before we go back to the house* he said with a yawn
I giggled at him and said of course. It’s still so easy for me to get along with them. They are like brothers to me rather then friends. That’s how I hoped it would be between us. Callie isn’t really close or anything with my guys, which I can understand because of them hurting me. But I hurt her too … I guess that’s different. Maybe in time she will be close with them like I am with her guys.
*So I hear that you’re going to be doing some training with us starting today*
*Yes I asked Felix about it yesterday and he said it was okay, I’m kind of nervous about it*
*It’s okay to be nervous. There’s a lot were going to be teaching you, and I’m positive youll pick it up fast*
*I’m just worried because I’m so tiny and weak, I still barely eat and I can’t gain weight. How am I supposed to defend myself Hyunjin? What do I do?*
*That’s okay too. Don’t worry so much about your weight. You’re beautiful as you are. And it’s all about technique, trust me*
Pulling up to the Stray Kids house. Its like a second home to me and I’m glad to be here again. It’s only about six thirty, everyone will be sleeping still but that’s okay. I’m glad to just be here and hang out, relax a little bit before we get down to business. We walked in the house and he said he was going to shower and get ready, I said okay I’ll just be in the living room. So I went and sat my ass down and went through some of my social media for a bit, I can hear someone coming down the stairs. Must be Hyunjin.
But I was wrong. It’s Felix. And he had the biggest smile on his face and came running over to me and hugged me, it was adorable.
*When did you get here? How did you get here? Why are you here so early? Oh I’m just so happy to see you!*
*Awe Felix I’m happy to see you too. I just got here, I called Hyunjin to see if he could pick me up. I had a really bad nightmare and just needed to get away. That’s why I’m here so early*
*Aw Nyx are you okay? Is there something I can do to help?*
*No, I feel better just being here. I’m excited and nervous to start training*
*Oh damn! Right! I can’t think right now I’m sorry. Let me just go change and we can get started*
He went hustling back to the stairs and to his room, it made me laugh a little seeing him go off like that. Being around them and joking around has already made me feel better. Though my heart still hurts because of Wooyoung. I’ll get over it and someday it won’t hurt anymore
A couple minutes later and he was back in the living room with me, grabbed my hand and we walked through the house to this door, he opened it revealing a staircase, I’ll be damned. I didn’t know they had a basement. Of course I’ve never really gone anywhere in the house besides the living room and kitchen so how would I know.
The basement is huge, it’s one big training area, half the room a gym and the other half had padded flooring with a punching bag
*Alright Nyx. Let’s begin*
An hour later and I was on the floor, a gross sweaty mess trying to catch my breath and he was leaning over me laughing. We started off with him teaching me how to block an attack, then my reaction and responses. It felt like being in a boxing class from the way we were going. I feel good about it. He did say I have fast reflexes like lightning bolts. So far it was just Felix and I down here and then the door opened, Chan coming into the room and chuckling
*Damn Felix didn’t you start light?*
*Chan it’s all good. I asked him to push me hard. I need to learn this and fast*
He came over and held his hand out for me and pulled me off the floor, then he started moving around and doing different things to try and attack, which I dodged and even got a couple hits on him
*Well you have nothing to stress about. You do learn fast. I give it maybe a week and youll be a pro. But enough with your hands. It’s my turn, were gonna go into the backyard and I’m going to teach you how to throw knives and use a bow and arrow*
Adrenaline started coursing through my veins and the sound of that. I’m so ready for this.
As soon as I stepped into the backyard with him it felt so good against my hot body. The nice cool air, with the sun in the sky but it's not warm yet. We walked a little closer to the forest line and walked over to this tree stump that was actually a fake. He opened it up and pulled out throwing knives and pointed out the different targets on the trees. He showed me the way he does it then told me to try, I hit a bullseye the first time but it’s guaranteed beginners luck. I threw four more and hit the bullseye everytime
Maybe I’m just a natural at this, he pulled out the bow and some arrows and showed me how to use it. And to both of our surprises, I still hit the center of the target everytime
*Damn girl, are you sure this is the first time you’ve done this? Because you’re honest to god a fucking natural. I’m not even sure if there’s much for me to teach you*
I laughed at him and hit a couple more targets and then I felt my phone vibrating in my back pocket. I pulled my phone out and saw that I had an assortment of messages from my babies. And then my phone actually started ringing
-hello?-
-Nyx, where are you?! We woke up and you were gone, we’ve been freaking out worried you left us again- Hongjoong
-im sorry babe, I’m just with Chan and the others right now-
-oh-
-whats wrong-
-I just wasn’t expecting that. What are you doing with them-
-Hongjoong is there a problem-
-hongjoong what’s the problem. Because I’m still friends with them, they’re dating my best friend and I consider them brothers so I don’t get what the issue is here-
Click
What the fuck. Honestly what’s his problem. It’s not like they aren’t friends with them too… why is he being this way
*Hey is everything okay?* - Chan
*No. Hongjoong just hung up on me after I told him I’m with you guys and I don’t get it*
*Ah I see he’s still jealous*
*What do you mean, you’re all friends too I don’t understand*
*He’s very protective of you Nyx, they all are. And I just don’t think they like you being somewhere without them*
*But they would never agree to train me. They don’t want me getting involved with hunting down Michael and taking him out*
*It’s understandable. They don’t want you to get hurt or be in danger*
*Chan, this is important to me, it’s something I need to do for me, that’s why I asked Felix for help*
*Nyx I understand. Were still going to train you don’t worry*
My phone started vibrating again but this time it’s Yeosang
-hello yeosang-
-hey are you okay?-
-no not really-
-whats wrong sweetheart-
-well I’m with Chan and the others right now, I left because I had a bad nightmare and needed to leave. Then Hongjoong called me and got jealous when I told him where I am and hung up on me so now I’m trying not to cry-
-awe I’m so sorry sweetheart, I’m right here, did you want to talk about it-
-not right now Yeosangie, I’ll talk to you about it soon-
-okay baby sounds good. Oh shit-
-whats wrong-
-hongjoong is heading out the door, I’m gonna go with him, I’ll message you okay-
-okay I love you-
-I love you too sweetheart talk soon-
Click
*Great. There’s a chance that Hongjoong and Yeosang are on their way. Yeosang isn’t angry. He wanted to know if I’m okay, but then he said Hongjoong was heading out the door*
*It’s okay Nyx, it’s going to be okay, let’s just call a day and go inside and find some ice cream or something yeah?*
*Yeah that sounds good thanks Chan*
*We’ll do more training just as soon as we can. Although you’re already turning out to be a pro as it is*
*Thanks Chan* I laughed, it’s nice to know that I’m not so hopeless when it comes to this. I’m worried about what’s going to happen now.
We put everything away and went back inside to the kitchen and pulled out some bowls and a tub of ice cream even though it’s only like ten in the morning. I didn’t care. I need this. The others were slowly waking up and all coming downstairs to join us and getting excited when they saw me here too. We all sat in the kitchen eating ice cream and just hanging out having a good time.
A knock on the front door and my heart started racing, my hands started trembling and I can feel my breath getting shorter. Callie and Jeongin came over to try and make me feel better but it feels like something bad is going to happen with Hongjoong or I’m about to have a flashback. Either way I’m scared
The sound of the door opening and I can hear his voice asking where is she and then it began when I heard the footsteps coming closer and closer
Flashbacks, to when I was being passed from different mafias as payment for my brother, loud footsteps as some man came towards me before I got beat again or used …
Hyperventilation, my body is trembling and I can’t see straight. I can’t think straight
Yeosang taking me in his arms and gently running his hand through my hair whispering over and over that he’s here that it’s okay, he’s not going to let anything happen to me
But I still can’t breathe properly. I can’t think. All I see is flashbacks and my body is going into fight or flight mode again and I can’t make it stop. I can’t make it go away.
Black out

Yeosang POV
She just blacked out in my arms. My poor angel is so scared, I can feel that she was having a ptsd flashback. She was scared because of Hongjoong, the anger in his voice when we were at the door, I know it triggered her. Honestly I don’t know why he’s so jealous. Were all friends, her best friend is in a relationship with them for God’s sake. I picked her up in my arms and carried her into the living room to sit down on the couch and cradle her in my arms, and softly brushing my hand through her hair. The expression on her face is breaking my heart, I can see how scared she is still even as she’s passed out. The others came in and sat down as well. Hongjoong stood in the doorway with his arms folded, looking pissed off
*Honestly Hongjoong what is your problem? Look at her, she’s fucking passed out and scared because she could hear how angry you are*
He glanced at Felix before looking at me, he gave him a dirty look. What is up with that. Honestly what is going on because I’m so confused
*Yeosang let’s just go* there was a huge edge in his voice
Everyone is looking at him, just as confused as I am
*Hongjoong. Just tell us what’s going on*
*Alright fine. Someone in this room. And I’m not going to say who, has feelings for Nyx and let’s just say I don’t trust said person while she’s here alone*
*What the fuck do you mean, they’re in a relationship with me. What do you mean someone in here has feelings for her* - Callie
*That time when she left, because she thought it was best for everyone. And she was gone for those three months before she ended up in the hospital and we went out to see her. I overheard a conversation by accident. And since then, I don’t know if it’s true or not, or if this person still likes her or whatever. But I’m not going to take any chances with my girl* - Hongjoong
God damn I don’t even know what to think, she started moving a little in my arms and she looks scared still, I gently kissed her forehead and held her a little tighter
*Alright. I’ve heard enough. I’ll figure this out after and talk to each one of you to see what’s going on. I can assure you Hongjoong. Nothing will happen with anyone here with Nyx that would be inappropriate. We are in a relationship with Callie. But I will get to the bottom of this myself* - Chan
I know Hongjoong doesn’t lie. Chan obviously knows that too. Which makes me wonder how long this has been going on for.
Callie looks devastated and on the verge of tears. Sobs started rippling through her chest and Chan went to where she was sitting and took her in his arms and held her. I looked at Hongjoong and he gestured his head towards the door. He’s right. It’s absolutely time for us to leave
I stood up and kept her in my arms and walked behind Hongjoong to the front door which he opened for me and I carried her to the car. He came over and opened the door for us, I sat down in the backseat with her, buckling her up and then taking her in my arms again, I just want her to be okay
*Hongjoong. Who are you talking about?*
*It doesn’t matter right now. I don’t want to complicate things further by revealing who it was I heard talking that day in the hospital. I just don’t want to lose her again Yeosang. I can’t go through that again*
*Were not going to lose her man, I swear. But I’m on the same side as you, I don’t want her to be there alone just in case. Even after Chan does talk to his guys*
*Yeosang. The guys I overheard that day. I had gone to the cafeteria in the hospital to get myself a coffee. When I had left all of you were sleeping but when I came back I heard them whispering to each other, about Nyx. About how they were scared they had feelings for her even though they’re dating Callie. It was Felix, Minho and Seungmin talking. And that’s all I’m going to say* 
*What the actual fuck. I’m not going to press for who said what. But what the actual fuck. They’re in a relationship with Callie….. Callie …… for his sake, whoever it was. I hope he just had his feelings mixed up and only thinks of Nyx as a sister. Because if he doesn’t, I feel horrible for Callie, that’s her best friend and her boyfriends*

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