To Reconcile [Kunikuzushi x fem!reader] Modern AU

Instant Cup Noodles

"Really? I can?"

"It's ironic how a literal stranger was more caring than my very own mother."

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[December 30 Saturday, 2:55 AM,]

(Kunikuzushi pov)

        I hate everything. My mother, my sister, my home, everything is miserable.

        I was so sick and tired of everyone. My mother kicked me out again. My stomach was twisting.

        She's probably giving her daughter a nice, warm meal, while I'm out here, in the cold of December, STARVING.

        I hate all of it..

        My mind was slowly spiralling into thoughts as I walked aimlessly. The last thing I needed was to think.

       No one cares for me.

       If I died right here and now, no one would cry at my grave.

       I hate my thoughts. I hate my brain for making me think or feel. I hate the pang in my chest when I see my mother treat my sister better than me.

       "You're such a failure."

       "It's no wonder mother loves me more than you."

        My mind would not stop replaying the events that happened earlier at home. I wanted to forget about it all.

        "Why can't you be more like your sister?!"

        Here I was thinking that walking outside would clear my mind a bit, the result has only been the opposite.

        My thoughts kept pilling up, eating at my brain, until it came to the conclusion that,

        I've had enough.

        I wasn't thinking anymore. I was just moving,

       to my death.

       No thoughts, just walking. I couldn't stop myself.

       The good part of me in my head was yelling,

       Why are you not turning back? Why are you still going? Why are you letting yourself die? Don't do this Kunikuzushi.

       Why did I not listen to him? I don't know. I wasn't stopping myself. I wasn't even objecting, even though something inside me was telling me to stop. I still kept going.

       I was shakily climbing on the railing which divided the road, and the beach below. There were rocks at the bottom, no sand to cushion my fall. The tears in my eyes blurred my vision and everything ached. My chest felt like it was on fire.