Mission Yokohoma (soukoku)

Operation matchmaker

"Ah, Thank you Chuuya-san really, but there's literally a 0.000000001%", I say trying not to laugh about his suggestion

"Hey! Look, I just have a feeling will you trust me?", he asks extending an arm to me

"Ok fine", I sigh after and giving him a handshake

"Ok deal is done! Also, Dazai is talking to Akutagawa-kun right now", he says looking over to Akutagawa's room

"What why!", I exclaim, I'm sure everybody who was asleep was up now

"Wel, it might be a bit hard to believe but...", he says, I think he's a bit unsure If he should reveal it or not

"But?"

"He said that he no longer craved Dazai's approval anymore", he says smiling after

"No way! Actually?", I ask trying to suppress a smile. I fail.

"I know, it's exactly how I reacted", he says turning his gaze to the floor, continuing to smile

"But what made him change his mind", I eagerly asked, I knew Akutagawa and he lived for Dazai-san's approval so this made me question almost all my life choices

"He said he sought someone else's attention now", he says looking at me and smiling

"Oh... Who?", I ask with my voice dropping due to disappointment

"You"

~

"Akutagawa-kun~", I hear Dazai-san enter my room without knocking. Do all the ADA members do this?

"Yes Dazai-san", I say closing my book and closing my pen with a cap

"I have a favor to ask from you", he says leaning against a wall after closing my door

"I'm sorry to inform but we are in different agencies now, I no longer need to do your bidding", I say sighing and turning myself around in my chair to face him

"And why is that?", he asks, I would say he's a bit surprised right now as well

"I no longer seek to impress you", I say looking at him directly at eye level

"..."

"What is it Dazai-san", I ask him, he doesn't do anything nor does he show any emotions

"I'm proud of you"

"I no longer wi-"

"I know, that's why I'm proud, you were finally able to grow up kiddo", he says, I think giving his first-ever genuine smile at me

"Thank you, but I assume that's not why you're here", I say, internally smiling back but emotions were a thing for people who grow weak. I am not weak

"I came here to ask you a few questions, mind sitting down with me", he asks pointing to my bed, still messy from my Rendez-Vous with Atsushi here

"Um ok", I say moving over to sit down on the bed where he's already sat

"Tell me do you still believe emotions are a sign of weakness", he asks while looking into my eyes

"Yes", I say firmly, once taught it's hard to unlearn, unlucky enough Dazai-san was the one to teach me

"Akutagawa this will be our last lesson, from then on we talk as friends, co-workers", he says but his sentence is unfinished, he wants to say something more but hesitates

"Partners", he says giving me another genuine smile

By now I could feel tears coming but I suppress them by closing and opening my eyes a few times before looking at my ceiling light and back to him

"Dazai-san why are you asking about my emotions", I ask still trying not to let the tears escape my face

"I want you to unlearn it"

"I can't do that Dazai-san"

"I was a kid when I taught you that", he says sighing after

"You're one as well, back then and still now, I was an asshole, you should cry if you feel like it", he says patting me on my shoulder

I could feel the tears finally manifest into the crevices of my eyes, before I could react tears start streaming down my face and to my chin, and it just continues at least that was until I started wiping them away in embarrassment

"Why are you telling this to me now?", I ask sniffling between every few words

"Because I learned this as well, just a few days ago though", he says looking up to the ceiling which was painted sky blue with starts drawn all over

"Chuuya-san?", I asked, hoping he'd get my implementation, seeing the expression my his face (which is rare) I guessed correctly

"Well-"

"Jinko and I heard Chuuya-san ask to be your boyfriend when we were hiding in the trees", I say simply stating the truth and shrugging my shoulders

"Oh", he says, I assume his face is turning red because he's embarrassed

I guess Dazai-san really has changed

"I'm glad", I say smiling for once

"What for?", he asks looking up to the ceiling once again

"That you're finally human, never thought you were one up until now",  I say looking back at him, who was already looking at me

"You should join the ADA", he says looking at me

"No"

"Aw~ why not?"

"The port mafia's pay is good, I like buying expensive things for Gin", I say smiling, thinking of my sister's happy face when I get her new knives that she uses for work

"And I've found comfort within everybody there, Hirotsu-san, Anne-san hell even Higuchi", I say continuing to smile, they were all like my family to me

"What about Chuuya?"

"He's like the father I would've had", I say looking at him, he was already smiling

"I'm glad to hear that", he says getting up and going to leave

"Don't forget th-"

"That emotions aren't all that bad?", I answer his question with doubt 

"Yes, exactly", he says opening the door

"Hey Akutagawa", he says turning to look at me

"Yes Dazai-san?"

"Go confess to him already"

~

I sigh, how could I really have done this to myself, I mean confessing to Akutagawa was one thing, BUT A DOUBLE DATE WITH CHUUYA-SAN AND DAZAI-SAN? I groan even thinking about how awkward it's going to be

"Hello Atsushi-kun~", I hear Dazai-san pop out of the corner, probably dragging Akutagawa

"Hey, Dazai-san... what are you doing to Akutagawa?", I ask looking a bit sideways to see Dazai-san grabbing him by the wrist

"Dazai-san, I shall request again, please let go of my wrist", he says struggling

"Your wish", he says letting go, as he does Akutagaw leans forward and falls on me

OMGWHYISHESOCLOSEOMGOMGOMG

"Hey mackcer-", chuuya-san says but stops mid sentence

"I feel like I shouldn't even question anymore"