"We have to be here... for josh"/ joshdub x Reader

Chapter 6.Date

               ⚠️eating disorder, self harm!⚠️

Y/n pov:
as we walk to the car josh opens the car door for me a laugh a bit and sit in the car. "Where are we going?" I ask looking at josh. "To dinner." He smiles. I'm a little nervous to go out to eat. I have this stupid thing wrong with me. It should be fine. We pull in to the restaurant and it's cheese cake factory. One of the places my brother took me and his friends to when he got out. Josh got us a table amd we were looking at the menu. I then got a sandwich. And josh got a burger. As the lady walked away me and josh talked "so... how long have you known the boys?" I ask "oh.. I've known them since we were kids." He laughs. "Mully and me meet in detention.. I got in trouble for telling the male teacher to stop being creepy to my buddy gabby. Eddie I met through YouTube a couple years back. Juicy and I met in math class. I suck at math so I used to ask him about it. Narrator I met through high school. I thought he was hot.." he laughs and looks up at me

"Wow the tables sure have turned!" I laugh out loud he looks at me and gives me a goofy little smile. I giggle a bit and then the lady sets down are plates josh thanked her as she walks away. I look down at my plate it's a club sandwich with some fries. Then everything comes back "anyone ever tell you your a fat son of a bitch?" I look at josh "what..." I start to cry "I don't even like you y/n." I start to cry harder as I look
At josh he looks disgusted. "I hate you Y/n ." He looks at me "Y/N!!" I hear josh yell and then I get sent back to reality. "Y-yea?" I say my voice all stuffy. "U okay?" He asks I can feel my tears running down my face "omg I'm so sorry exuse me." I say as getting up and walking to the women's bathroom. Yes I still use the girls bathroom it honestly makes me feel safer.

Josh pov:
As mine and y/ns food came he looked down at it. And he spaced out and started crying "y/n?" No response "y/n!" I yell but still he's zoned out "Y/N!" I yell it feels like the hole restaurant looked at me the second I raised my voice. I don't mind tho I'm worried about y/n he looks up at me as tear start to fall down his face "u okay?" I ask he then stands up "omg I'm so sorry exuse me." He cry's and walks to the bathroom. What just happened.. is he okay. A minnuit gose by amd y/n walks back. His face with no tears. I look up and smile a bit. He sits down and looks back at his plate then it me as he picks up a fry and eats a little bit of it. As someone who LOVES chips I eat them in one bite but I understood why it was taking him so long.

Y/n pov:
Josh looked sad. I hope he doesn't think I hate him. I look up and he's looking at me smiling a bit I take a small bit of my sandwich and set it back on my plate we talked a little more and then after he was done and I eat most of my food he stood up in front of me and got down on one knee.