Sayonee Series : Mamori Tai ( Primo : Kaden & Nyebe)

Primo Sayonee : Mamori Tai Treinta

"Sorry A naglie si pére mo haist ikaw kasi why mo ba like yang si kuya kaden eh sinaktan ako non" mahinang sambit ko kay ares ng makatulog siya.

Pinababa ko na din muna si kuya kaden sa living room to wait for me.

I stare at my son muna, im getting strength from him okay?! His my ano yung kabaliktaran ng kryptonite ni superman? Ay si batman ba yun? Ah basta sya yung nagbibigay sakin ng strength and need ko yun right now like many many strength T-T

Rinig ko nga tibok ng heart ko eh huhu heart please makiaayon ka. Kinaya natin ng 5 years di ba? Kaya pa natin to for sure ng mga ilang minuto.

I kiss his cheeks before slipping off the bed and pulling up his comforter a little.

I took a couple of shaky breath, huhu feel ko yung puso ko will jump out of my throat as in kasi as it pound hard against my ribs parang may kung anong nagjujump sa throat ko.

Baka nasusuka lang talaga ako?

I pace back and fort as quietly as i can sa carpeted floor ng kwarto ni ares heavy sleeper naman si a for sure di sya magigising.

Okay okay kalma e-be its been 5 years wag ka kabahan si kuya kaden lang yan...yung nga eh si kuya kaden yan! Yung lalaking di ko makalimutan nakakainis!

Nababaliw na me pati sarili ko kinakalaban ko na ~▪︎~

My hands are shaking din kaya i form it to a fist para kahit papano magstop and di mapansin ni kuya kaden.

Mga flamingo im so nervous please guide me.

Nakaupo siya sa couch namin, his eyes immediately on me habang pababa ako ng stairs.

I avoided his gaze.

I dont know what to feel, it feels like if i stare in his eyes long enough baka malunod ulit ako.

Im scared to be honest. Hindi naman sa kanya, maybe a little but im more scared of actually listening.

Listening to his reasons all over again if he even have one.

Cause if he actually have one, baka umiyak ako, kasi i will regret listening to my parents who had done nothing but to control me.

If kuya kaden have reason baka mawalan na ko ng respeto at pagmamahal sa mommy and daddy ko cause if kuya kaden tell me his reason and prove me that my parents had only deceive me, ill cry and i dont wanna cry again.

It hurts to cry.

Naupo ako sa couch na nakaharap to where he is sitted.

I can feel his eyes boring holes in my head.

A shiver run down my spine as it gets intense as i sit down and finally meet hiz gaze.

"What do we need to talk about kuya?" Buti nalang my voice didnt waver altho i sound rush and breathless its fine.

Im rushing anyways. For him to leave.

He sigh, his elbow on his man spread knees habang naka lean forward, he looks-- okay enough nyebe dont stare at his godly unholy body its bad! Really bad!

He looks more handsom-- e-be ano ba focus ka nga huhu stop ogling at him! Saway ko sa sarili ko but i cant help it! T-T my eyes are betraying me.

"Those pictures are real but i didnt kiss her i was whispering to her, i was carrying a work mate cause we were ambushed nyebe, she was injured, i dont give two flying fuck about lissandra. i made it clear to you that you're the one that caught my attention didnt i? Have i ever lied to you?" His voice tight but at the same time he sounded calm.