All The Things I've Never Said Before - Part 6

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If I ever push you away, I don't really mean to

When I tell you I don't want to talk about it I do,

I am just looking for the right words.

Give me a minute, and if I can tell you, I will.

I try to be a struggling mix of real and perfect at the same time.

At the moment I am working on that ratio

When I get really quiet sometimes it's because I have too much to say

I have thought of too many things to tell you all at once

And I don't know what I could possibly say first.

I get immaturely jealous of anyone

Who gets to see you on a daily basis.

I will miss you very easily.

But I also like that we can spend our time

A P A R T

And we are both okay with that.

I know space is also good for us.

I love how we both come to love some of the same things.

And I love how we love entirely different things.

My head is a complicated pile of thoughts, fears, cravings and dreams.

And this enormous tangled up mess for the past and, somehow, the future has me very very confused at times

I know that I have flaws but I also know that I am human and a little bit broken inside but at least I know I'm trying.

I am one person, I have two hands and I have one heart.

But inside I know that I love you.

And I am so glad that you are here with me