Chained By The Old Love (CLSS #1)

Chap 19: Followed

Lorelei Larissa's P.O.V.

Nang makarating na kami sa harapan ng hospital ay nadatnan namin doon ang pinsan ko.

"Thank you again, Travis," I said and waved to him.

After that, I get in on Brent's car.

Brent looks so concern at me now.

"What really happened? And why are you with that guy?" he asked, eager to know the answers.

I leaned on the chair and just close my eyes.

"I'm still tired, Brent. I will just say it to you kapag handa na ako," I muttered.

Tumahimik siya kaya naman binuksan ko ang mga mata ko para tignan siya. Nakakunot ang kanyang noo habang nakatitig sa akin.

I know that some conclusions have formed already on his mind. But he just can't say it because he is afraid that I outburst.

"Fine. Anyway, kumain ka na ba?" tanong niya habang busy sa pagmamaneho.

"Hindi pa. Pero wala akong gana. Isa pa, gagawin ko pa iyong thesis namin," utas ko.

"No, Lei. Kaya ka nangangayayat dahil nalilipasan ka ng gutom. We should eat first before going home," he said with finality.

I quickly held his arm. "Ah... can I sleep on your condo? I don't want to go home."

Kumunot na naman ang noo niya dahil doon. I know that he wants to ask me why, but he kept his mouth shut and just nodded at me.

Thankfully, he is like that. Kasi wala naman akong maisasagot sa kanya kung magtatanong man siya.

Kumain muna kami bago tumuloy sa kanyang condo.

Pagkarating doon ay inasikaso ko na ang dapat kong asikasuhin.

Pero madalas ay lumipad pa rin ang utak ko, lalo na at may pasok na naman bukas.

Panibagong araw na naman ng pag-iwas sa kanila. Ngayon ay nadagdagan na ang mga iniiwasan ko.

I never thought that I will avoid Sophie. She is my bestfriend... I guess.

It is not really sinking on me what she and Joziah talked about.

He sees me as a dirty woman?

He thinks that I cheated on him.

No. I will never do that.

The reason why he thought of that... I don't want to talk about it. I thought that I forget about that, but the trauma came back. I am afraid again from that. It haunts me again.

Then it hits me... I miss my parents. I miss how my mother ask me about my problems, my dad ask me how I am doing.

If I don't feel good, I will hug them. It made me release my stress. They are my comfort. My real comfort.

At the end, I need my parents. I want to go back in their arms. I want them to tell me that everything is going to be alright.

I didn't notice that my tears fell as me and Shine finalize our thesis here at the library.

She notices my tears.

"Lorelei," she said with concern.

I chuckled. "Sorry. Naalala ko lang 'yung sad ending ng dramang pinanood ko," I lied.

Until when will I lie about what I really feel?

I wiped my tears and continue what we are doing.

Finally, a real smile formed on my lips when I saw our finish product. Tila nawalan ako ng isang tinik sa dibdib. Nabawasan na ang mga iniisip ko.