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|9| ℐ𝓉'𝓈 𝓃ℴ𝓉 𝓉𝒽ℯ 𝓈𝒶𝓂ℯ

when I can't fall asleep I walk to
a park and breathe in the cold
morning air, something about
it is so clean and reviving. Ifykyk

I hear footsteps running toward me
and I turn around to see an empty
sidewalk. What the fuck? I turn back around and run into someone's chest

"You can't be serious." He laughs
and taps my nose "I never am"

I'd normally agree but when you
talk about killing his brother he
happens to get very scared and serious.

If he wants to argue again I'm not interested, I don't want to hurt him
but I don't know a way around it.

"Can we just talk, please?" I sigh
and look up at him, I notice the dark
circles under his slightly red eyes and realize saying no would be selfish.

We don't agree with each other but
I don't want to torture the man.
"Talk," I said one word which says
more than I can say.

He doesn't speak for over a minute,

the only sound we hear is Chicago
waking up and beginning to work.

I count to myself and say one more
minute and I'll leave.
I'm on fifty-nine when he finally says
"I want us to leave."

not very descriptive but I understand
it anyway. "No," I say so quietly
that I'm not even sure he heard it.

I told Celeste I'd help her and Louis
has no interest in what I want, I'm tired
of doing nothing; I don't want to hide.

I can't figure out how he feels
but I think it might be safe to
assume he's mad, like
he's been for the past few months.

At first, he seems confused by my not accepting his proposal, but I don't understand why. I told him what I
wanted and he wasn't interested; I'm
not going to force him to do anything.

"So you just want to take the easy way.
You just want to avoid everything!"

he shouts, his words bouncing
off the walls in this
empty alleyway and filling me with
rage that pushes me off the edge.

I smell the alcohol from him and
realize that all of these
actions are because of drunk Louis,
the most reckless version.

Now we're both irritated. Well,
it's not that surprising, we usually
end up acting the same way,
and feeling the same emotion.

"None of this is fucking easy! Do you
think I wanted any of this? I didn't,
but I got it and I'm not going to waste
my time pretending like things aren't
awful, I'm done pretending to make
people believe I'm better than I am"

He stares at me with pity in his
eyes, for what? I'm not sure.

I don't deserve anything like that,
this is supposed to be the part where he
yells and insults me but he doesn't.

"No words?" I ask, he shakes his head
while tears brim in his eyes. I see
a figure walking toward us and once
their close enough I realize it's Celeste.

"What's going on?!" she sounds very
annoyed, I don't know if it's because
I wasn't at the apartment or because
I'm in a weird alley with Louis,
who she doesn't know that well.

Louis turns around so quickly
that it makes me to
confuse to react, so now he's
become a stalker and a ninja

Celeste gives me a look that's mixed
with anger and confusion,
she probably thinks I'm betraying
her in some way even though this
whole situation was unintentional.