Daddy's Best friend | 18+

37 | Welcome home

"You could never ruin my life, it's impossible." He whispered, and he held my eyes with confidence. "It was my choice to love you, and I don't regret it."

"You don't regret me?" I asked, just trying to confirm because he's probably the only person that doesn't regret loving me.

"Not even a little." He replied.

My eyes started fluttering and my stomach held a cage of butterflies, he meant every word and that's what made my heart stop.

"But I can't anymore."

"I don't understand." I said, the butterflies disappeared along with the warmth that was once in my chest.

"I can't love you anymore."

His eyes were watery and his hands pulled away from mine, and my body instantly started aching all over. I looked away, my mouth stuttering over unknown words of what felt like heartbreak. Was the room closing in? Or is it all in my head?

"We'll destroy each other and that's the last thing I want for you." He whispered under his breath, my brain couldn't wrap around his words. "You've healed so much, you don't want this."

This? As in him, as in a relationship between us but doesn't he understand, that's all I've ever wanted.

"You need to go back to Seattle after the funeral."

Pain, confusion, anger, sadness, with all the emotions I felt at this very moment. I couldn't even think of numbers to count backward to, the walls were closing in on me. I pulled away my hand from his iron grasp, I can't be touching him as he practically breaks my heart.

"Until you fix your problems or forever?" My voice cracked, unintentionally.

I could see it in his eyes, the answer I didn't want to hear, the answer that will keep me up for days and not let me breathe.

"Forever." He mumbled the haunting word, who knew I'd ever despise that word.

I've grown, I've healed enough for the both of us. I can finally allow myself to love him without worrying about what might ruin us, I've tried loving other people and I can't because he's the only one for me. I'm scared of what might happen if we're not a part of each other's lives, that would destroy me.

I love him, I'm in love with Kaz Rhodes and I think I've always been since the moment my eyes met his, the moment he defended me against men that have abused me, the moment his touch started to feel like home, the moment his words kept me safe, the moment he jumped into that pool and every moment after that, I've loved him. I've never loved anyone before not like I love him and that scared me but I'm not scared anymore, he's the first man that's never scared me.

"No, I can't do that." I said, my voice finally holding confidence and security.

"Talith-"

"Why are you afraid of water?"

He was surprised at my question, I switched the topic is what he thought but in reality, I didn't.

He swallowed hard, his gaze settling on mine. "My mother drowned herself in our backyard pool when I was a boy." He said. "I couldn't even step inside to drag her body out, I was too afraid."

"Yet you jumped in to save me." I said, quietly.

He was quiet, he didn't know what to say until he whispered these faint words. "Because I'm in love you."

My heart became soft and mushy, he always gave me that effect. I wanted to hug him, I wanted his pain to transfer into my body just so he wouldn't hurt anymore.

I nodded softly, my lips tugged together holding back my raw tears. "I don't like strip bars, my dad would blow through most of our money there leaving us with no food." I said. "My mom always acted like she was never hungry so my brother and I had more food to eat."

"That's why I haven't stepped foot in one till last night."

His eyes softened, and now he wanted to ease my pain. "Why would you do that?" He asked, his hand rubbing his forehead upset knowing it might've hurt me to walk inside that bar.

My fingers reached out to grab his wrist, our eyes were locked as I slowly dragged his arm back to our legs. My fingers clutched his as I exhaled deeply, we feel each other's sadness, happiness, confusion, and anger, we feel it all and we deserve each other despite all the years I've tried pushing those feelings away.

"Because I'm in love with you." I whispered, his jaw instantly unclenched at the sound of my words. "I would do it a million more times."

Tears brim my eyes, and my cheeks are flushed with a light pink color. A tear trailed down his cheek, and a small smile graced his lips as he stared deeply into my eyes. His hand touched my cheek and everything else disappeared, it's always been him and I hate that it took me so long to realize.

We both leaned into each other, our lips touched softly while my hands held the back of his neck. He exhaled into the kiss as he could finally breathe again, his thumb tilted my face higher allowing his kiss to deepen. He smelt like my shampoo and body wash, it somehow made me feel even more content. Shives crawled up my back while his tongue plunged inside my warm mouth, his other hand touched the small of my back pulling my body on top of his.

My legs straddled his thighs, and his hand left my back and gripped my thigh. His touch felt like fire against my skin and I loved it, his other hand pushed my messy hair away from my face. We pulled back just a little, we both were breathing hard and our eyes were filled with so many emotions.

"Welcome home, darling." He whispered against my lips, teasing my bottom lip. "Did you really think I'd let you again?"

I laughed quietly, my fingers touched his wet cheek. "You tricked me." I said.

"I just needed to be sure, I never want you to be unhappy again."

I nodded my head, of course, he did because all he cares about is my safety and my happiness.

I stared at him as I slowly reached for the hem of my shirt, he watched me carefully as I pulled it over my head and dropped it to the floor. I was completely bare underneath with just a small pair of green panties, his warm hand trailed underneath my breast where a small tattoo of the space needle in Seattle sat.

"Lucio never allowed me to have a tattoo." I explained, softly. "I got it my first week there."

"I love it." He replied while meeting my eyes again, his lips slowly lowered against my tattoo and kissed my skin.

Everyone was out of the house, it was only us.

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