छाप तिलक सब छीनी रे....

🌺थारे वास्ते रे ढोला,नैन म्हारे जागे रे,सारी सारी रैन जागे🌺

The lyrics of this song and me all decked up as a bride..After having a conversation with him(Ram), I genuinely hoped for a sound sleep but when all the brides are denied of this fortune,how can I be an exception?....Today when Maa came to wake me up,I was already all set...all set to be dolled up once again... honestly speaking,now I don't even wish to talk about Vidaai(farewell).All I can think of is... let's just get done with this once for all...As it is inevitable,I have to leave this place so let it be... Yeah,it is said that the Bride should not be this overtly excited for the groom's procession...but all I want is to get out of this dilemma as soon as possible....and to sit in this room all dressed up like a bride...no ,this is not happening anymore ...This hall belongs to our family only,now it is for the community/society. Instead of some lavish hotel,he(Ram) managed to get the agreement for this place from everyone so that the money can be of some value to children....it is needless to say that my family was beyond happy as they could get their daughter married off from their own place....

रही बात इस भारी भरकम पोशाक की,बस कुछ देर फ़ोटो के लिए पहननी थीं हमें , कम से कम बृंदा ने तो यही कहकर मां और कुमुद को अपना वकील बना कर भेजा था हमारे पास... वो प्रिया,वो प्रिया तो हमारी पहचान से परे है... वो भारी मेकअप, जोड़ा और सब, उन सबके नीचे दबकर असली प्रिया तो सांस नहीं ले पा रहीं थीं....पर अब जो प्रिया आईने में दिखती है..एक वक्त था जब..... ख़ैर,ये पोशाक ही जची फेरों के लिए... हे भगवान। हम तो बाकी लड़कियों की ही तरह,शादी के बारे में, कपड़ों आदि के बारे में ' प्लानिंग ' कर रहें हैं...नहीं,नहीं...ये सब ,ये ना.. उफ्फ रहने दें प्रिया, कम से कम आज नहीं... मां भी कह रहीं थीं कि आज किसी बुरी भावना से मंडप में नहीं बैठना,कोई नहीं..ये सब करने से अगर सब खुश होते हैं तो.....कुछ देर की ही बात है, मां और कुमुद ,उनकी दोस्त सब बारात का स्वागत करने गए हैं... मां के पैरों में तो पर ही लग गए जैसे खुशी के मारे ....

Talking about this heavy attire,I was asked to wear it for photo session,at least that's how Brinda sent Maa and Kumud to convince me as her advocates...that Priya,that Priya is beyond my imagination...that heavy make-up,attire and all, crushed under all that the real Priya was panting Hard to breathe freely..but the Priya in this mirror image...There was a time when...Alas!At last I picked this outfit for the Phera...Oh God.I have started talking and planning about the wedding,attires and all just like other girls...No,no...all this is,no... Uff,leave it Priya,not today at least....Even Maa asked me to sit in the mandap with calm mind, it's okay..if others get happy by all this... It's just a matter of some time,Maa and Kumud,her friends are all set to welcome the Groom and his procession...Maa is literally floating in the air with happiness ...

और तभी...

Suddenly...

हमें मनाही थीं वरमाला के मुहूर्त से पहले बाहर आने की पर बाहर बारात के स्वागत के समय पसरी इस ख़ामोशी ने.... तो जाकर दरवाज़े से कान लगाए ,रुकना ही असंभव हो चला था...