smoke and sins

white powder

"Come on" he said walking me out the pub "I'm going back now I'll see you next week" I said pulling Kate in for a hug "oh I see someone's taking you home" she said looking at Tommy "it's not like that" I said laughing "sure it's not ivy" she said winking at me, causing me to roll my eyes while Tommy just stared at me. "you ready?" He said getting impatient "yep" I said grabbing onto his arm for support.

Half way down the road Tommy said to me "your freezing" "I'm actually boiling" "fuck put this on" he said quickly taking his jacket off "but I'm warm" "no your not, you think you are, that's early signs of hypothermia" "I can't get hypothermia it's not even that cold outside" I laughed "your wearing nothing but a dress in November, it's freezing" "don't be stupid it's a warm night" "trust me I've seen men die from hypothermia in the war and it's not pretty, so put the fucking jacket on" he said passing it to me "thank you" he just nodded and we carried on walking."

It wasn't a long walk I would say maybe 10, 15 minuets but for some reason it felt so much longer. My head was still spinning and for some reason everything felt in slo motion, I guess I must have been in a trance until Tommy said to me "get my cigarettes out my jacket" I patted about until I found them, he took the packet and took one out before offering one to me "thank you" I said before he held the match in front of my face so he could light it for me. I cupped my hands round it while he went to light it and there was a moment. A brief moment where I looked up to his and he looked back. His ocean blue eyes met with my vibrant green eyes before I looked back down to see that if he had lit it yet. And then we carried on walking. There was a turn we usually take to get to my house but we missed it "we're supposed to turn" "we're not going to yours" "where are we going" "I'm not having your alone while your in this state, you can stay with us" "I feel fine now" "your having early stages of hypothermia, you've had a lot to drink and also snorted coke, I don't think you should be on your own" I laughed before agreeing with him.

"Try be quite" he said opening the door and leading me in "Tommy is that you!" Polly shouted from the kitchen. Fuck this is gonna look strange, "it's me" he shouted "and Ivy" he added on. Polly walked into the hallway where we both stood and smiled at me. It was more of a 'I know what's going on here smile' but she really did not know what was going on "I'll get the kettle on" she said as we followed her into the kitchen and Tommy pulled out a chair for me. "So what have you two been up to?" She asked placing cups of tea on the table "she had to much to drink so I said she's staying here for the night" Tommy said "I see" she said looking at us both and she sipped her tea "yep" I said trying to avoid eye contact "and the others?" She asked "johns probably with some whore somewhere" "Thomas" I said staring him down as he practically just called my friend's whores "and Arthur is, fuck knows where" he said "right ok" she said "so Ivy" she said staring me down as she could obviously tell something was off "how was your night?" She asked "was good for the most part, but then I think I had to much to drink so Tommy just walked me home" I said trying to sound as sober as possible "hm to much to drink?" "Yep" "is that why your eyes are red and your pupils are massive?" Fuck nothing gets past this women does it. "Happens when I drink" "yep alright, cut the ballshit you two what the fuck happened?"

I looked over at Tommy basically forcing him to explain. He took a deep breath before saying "fucking Arthur got Ivy to do drugs with him, I found them outside and Arthur ran off and she has early stages of hypothermia" he said pointing to me as I held my head down "Christ ok so clearly an eventful night" surprisingly she stayed really calm, sipping on her tea. "Yeah very eventful" I said with an awkward smile "ok well Thomas you best go and find your brother and Ivy I'll sort you out" "I can go home, I'm fine now" I said "no" they both said at the same time "right" I said sat there not knowing what to do. "Ivy take my bed I'll sleep downstairs" Tommy said standing up "no I'll sleep downstairs" "no I'll be back late anyway" he said before walking out the door to go find Arthur. There was a moment of silence before Polly turned to me "so people have been talking" she said getting ready to gossip "oh god I know my friend mentioned it today" "well, is it true?" "Is what true?" "You and Tommy" "no it's not true, just a silly rumour" "and is that why your wearing his coat?" I looked down completely forgetting I had it down "No I was cold he gave it to me" "I can tell you know" I smiled at how intrigued she was "can tell what?" I said laughing "you two, there's something there" "there's not trust me" "don't try convince me there isn't when your sleeping in his bed tonight" "oh my god Polly he said he'll be back late" I said still giggling "well I best be getting a wedding invitation" "Christ Polly" I said properly laughing now and so was she "come on I'll show you your bed for the night"

She took me to Tommys room and if was different to what I imagined, it was small but cosy and the walls were covered in a wallpaper that he must have picked out before the war because Jesus Christ this room did not look like his at all. "Bathrooms across the hall" Polly said before going to walk out "Polly" "yes" she said turning around "why do you think me and Tommy are together?" "I just think your right for each other" "we barley know each other" "yes but he's let you name his horse, wear his jacket and sleep in his bed" "how do you know about the horse?" She just gave me a smirk before saying "get some sleep" and leaving. What the fuck am I doing here.