Let Me Love You

Hi Leila

I laughed, the waffles jumped from the toaster and I started preparing them. Suddenly I felt his arms wrapping my waist slowly from the back. I smiled at the moment his chin leaned down in my right shoulder.

Turning around and leaving the food on the table, I realized the few inches that separated our faces. Remembering the scene from an hour ago, I shook my head wiping the thoughts off. I’m only human, I make mistakes; and kissing Nathan Sykes won’t become one of them…I have a boyfriend on tour, and I will wait for him to get back. I smiled.

“Nathan…” he smiled at the sudden sound of his name “Please move”  

He shook his head in denial, placing his arms in the table behind me; leaving me with no space or chance to move an inch.

“Nat” I groaned “Move!”

He gave me a cheesy smile, shaking his head – like a little kid – one more time.

“Ugh, Nathan!” pushing him “Get out of my way, you nutcase!”

Laughing “Nope” my eyes widened “Until you give me a kiss”

“You nuts!?” he burped out laughing “I have a boyfriend! I have his baby!”

His facial expression went absolutely blank. He forgot about Harry…His light eyes, darkened at the time his face fell. A minute of full silence passed; too slowly that seemed longer. Looking up again, his gaze met mine.

“On the cheek?”

His eyes all teary travelled from my left eye to the right one, non-stopping. I smiled and nodded slowly. Leaned forward and gently kissed his pale cheek. His eye went shot almost instinctively, letting a tear roll down his left eye.

“I like you, Nat” opening his eyes again “You’re a really great guy. You’re too sweet” I confessed

“It’s not enough”

“It should be”

“But it’s not” he said stubbornly “It’s not enough for you, it’s never enough, it has never been and it will never be”

“Nathan” I sighed

“No, Jen” interrupting me, moving a few steps backwards, taking his waffles and having a first bite “Jenny, it’s never enough to make you fall in love with me. Every time I admit my feelings to you…you-” making a pause “You don’t feel the same way. You don’t even feel a little touched by my words…you’re always going to prefer-”

It was my turn to interrupt “Harry” his eyes flickered into mine surprised “Harry…I’m always gonna prefer Harry”

“Exactly” he let go a deep-long sigh

“Because I’ve already fallen in love with him” he rolled his eyes at my expected words “I met him years ago; while I met you the last one. Don’t you think is fair enough for me to love him back?”

Leaving the waffles again “And you don’t believe it’s fair enough to love ME back, as well?” he stood up and walked closer to me “Or do you think that I’ve loved you enough, already?” I started walking to the door, slowly trying to avoid Nathan questions, but also trying not to be too obvious, “Don’t you think that the media has been really rude to me lately?”

“That’s none of my business”

“Of course it is, Claire!” he shouted. I turned back to face him. He was clearly broken “Of course it is, Claire…it’s your business because it was my decision to love YOU!” his voice broke with the last word. Tears streaming down his face “It has been the hardest decision I’ve taken, considering you’re with someone…and that someone is Harry Styles…dude! From One fucking Direction!” he sighed, took a few deep breaths to calm down and continued “I’m risking everything…”

My eyes scanned him carefully. What the actual hell is happening? I need to do something! When did I let the things fall into all the wrong places? I’m just a normal-teenage girl. I don’t need this useless drama. Out of nothing, his hands locked my face. The warmth of his palms were making my cheeks turned red. I was waiting patiently for the next sentence, perhaps just the next word…but no sound came out of his mouth. The house was completely silent. Mute. Nothing to hear, not even Darcy's baby snores, or the annoying barks of the neighbor’s dogs...not even our breath. My eyes kept scanning him. Traveling from one eye to another; carefully not missing a single detail. Noticing how the dark of his pupil clearly ends when his iris starts with the incredible light green, turning to shine blue at the very end, wrapping the entire color-party with a dark circle again. His handsome, he really is. Unfortunately I’m not the right girl for him…my eyes went shut within my last thought.

“Please forgive me” he mumbled

“It’s okay” I whispered back

“I don’t want these to ruin our friendship”

“I know” my eyes opened in his direction “It would be stupid if we let these get to our heads”

Agreeing with my statement, he finally nodded and let me go.

The doorbell ranged, Darcy cried, I got mad, and Nathan laughed…Why does every time D is sleeping, someone has to wake her up!?

“Could you please open the door, Nat?” I began walking to my daughter’s room “I have to get Darcy”

“Sure do!” he shouted in the background

I got into my baby’s room, and walked to her crib. “Hello Lady D!” she answered me with just a smile. I took her in my arms, and walked out. Going down the hall, I realized that Nathan hadn’t moved an inch since he went to open the door. “Are you okay?” I frowned, while looking at him staring at the outside, “Nat?”

“You’re not gonna let me in, or what!?” a voice groaned outside

It sounded familiar, but I wasn’t close enough to distinguish it properly.

“I-” the boy from The Wanted mumbled

“Oh my exploding tomatoes!” the voice randomly whined

What?...

“Sykes, move! I’m not the freaking Criss Angel to appear inside the flat in a millisecond, okay!?” Wait what? “Move!”

“Yeah, sure-” Nathan announced shyly, but still not moving a foot

“Claire! Tell your weird doorkeeper, to move!” I laughed knowing who the voice was “Move, you shithead!”

The curly hair girl pushed him, and got inside.

I laughed “Hi Leila” 

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