The Innocent Sex Goddess

TISG 30

"Ayaw mo ba talagang gawin ang fellowship?"

I sniffled and shook my head sa tanong ni Maxine. I could hear the sadness in hear voice pa. Wala na akong ganang gumalaw or even exist. I don't care about my career anymore. Ang gusto ko lang ay hanapin si Trevor.

"Nadia naman, pangarap mo 'to," malungkot nitong sabi sa akin habang sinusundan ako pabalik sa kwarto.

"I don't care about it, Max," walang gana kong sagot at humiga ulit sa kama namin ni Trevor. My tears started falling again nang humiga sa tabi ko si Maxine at mahigpit akong niyakap mula sa likod.

I really don't believe that Trevor left me because he didn't want us anymore. Alam kong he has a valid reason. He cares for me. Ilang beses din siyang nangako sa akin na hinding hindi niya na ako iiwan.

Pero sobrang sakit talaga. I feel so betrayed and abandoned. Hindi ko ba deserved ang explanation kung bakit iniwan niya ako? Wala lang ba sa kanya ang lahat ng nangyari sa amin? Now it makes me question the genuineness of everything that he had done for me.

"How are you?" Aidan asked nang umupo ito sa tabi ko dito sa balconahe ng condo ni Trevor.

I heaved a sad sigh and leaned my head on his shoulder. "Nasasaktan pa rin," I bitterly chuckled. "I don't even know what to do with my life anymore." Trevor was my life and now he's gone... I feel so lost.

"You have to move on, Nadz. We're all worried about you, your best friend's really worried about you, mag tatatlong buwan ka ng ganito," he caressed my face. Bakas pa sa boses nito ang lungkot at pag-aalala.

Tatlong buwan na pala. Hindi ko man lang namalayan. Ang bilis talaga ng panahon paghindi maayos ang takbo ng buhay 'no.

"Paano mo nalaman?" I finally asked. Hindi ko na naitanong sa kanya simula noong umuwi siya para sa akin. Ang importante lang sa akin noon ay nandito ang kambal ko.

He chuckled nang harapin ko siya. "I had suspicions before, kasi kung kailan wala si Trevor, wala ka din. I remember Zia would always tell me what if they're dating, it would be so cute if they're dating," we both chuckled. "It was confirmed when he said that he wanted to name his future kid as Hope and then two months ago, Maxine called me asking for help," pagkwento nito.

Natawa naman agad ako, for the first time in three months ngayon lang yata ako natawa pero ang sakit pa rin kasi naalala ko na naman yung araw na 'yon.

"Nadia means hope, Aidan means fire," tumatango tango kong sabi. Mom would always tell us that growing up.

"Sorry for keeping it from you, natakot lang talaga kami," I said with tears on my eyes.

I inhaled when he wrapped his arm around me. "I know that Trevor is a good guy kaya matagal ko nang tanggap," he sincerely said with a comforting smile on his face.

"I wanna see him again, Aidy. Kahit isang beses lang," my voice broke. "I just want him to tell me personally that he doesn't want me anymore at tatanggapin ko. Kahit masakit, tatanggapin ko," I broke down.

Niyakap agad ako nito ng mahigpit habang napahilamos ako sa mga kamay ko. "I'll help you, I promise, hahanapin natin siya."

"Ate Nadia!"

I genuinely felt happy when I saw all of my cousins sitting at the VIP couch sa Deus Sedah. They were all complete kahit alas dos na ng madaling araw.