11:11

i won't stop you

now i believe in god
hope you like me better now
do u remember the lies u fed to my head?
thought the world of you
gun to my head, i still do
i think i'm in one of my weird moods now
and one of my stupid exes said i might be borderline
but i'm just a ghost of who you think i am
waltz back into my life like it's nothing
who am i to complain?
i'll find a new heart to break
and you can keep being oblivious
i don't even want you anymore
but sometimes you show up in my dreams still
(in a hotel lobby, in your lap, you're angry, you disappear into a mountain)
like a menacing spirit
always in the background of my life
tall and looming
i'm feeling confused again
my footing is getting unstable again
17 feels tumultous
maybe it's just a weird mood and it'll wear off
sure fucking hope it does
because i don't have the energy for teenage angst anymore

but, of course, if you want to say hi
(and i know you do, i know it, i know you)

i won't stop you