My Desires

Chapter 35- The Save

Allison's POV

My eyes flutter open taking in my surroundings.

I realized I was still at the basement where one of Enzo's bodyguard brought me earlier.

Just getting use to having those.

I'm just glad that they make themselves less known.

I looked down at myself and realize that I'm naked.

Memories of before I fell asleep came flooding in my mind.

Oh my god.

I can't believe I had sex with Enzo when my best friend is somewhere out in the world probably starving to death.

And here I am having sex.

God I feel terrible.

My emotions are all over the place.

Right now I just want Nia to come back to me.

This is all still unbelievable.

I sniffled as it occurred to me that I might lose my sister.

With the amount of tears I've shed over the last six months it's surprising I still have more to release.

As if that's going to bring her back.

If I just listened to Nia about that idiot being off, we wouldn't be in this situation.

Why do I just always have to see the good in everyone?

This is all my fault.

I feel so naive.

"Fuck!" I cried knocking a glass of water from the night stand.

The splinters shattered on the floor and the water damped a small of the bed.

That didn't even matter to me right now.

I just felt so disgusted with myself. I couldn't even hold out for a few days.

A knock sounded at the door and my heart accelerated.

Not this again.

Memories raging a storm in my mind, I took a deep breath trying to regain myself.

*Knock Knock*

"Just a second!" I called back.

God I'm so tired of this!

My mind keeps straying to the same day I got shot when Nia was there with me.

*Knock Knock*

"Wait nuh, bomboclaat!" I gritted.

Think of him.

His smile. His laugh. His presence. Him.

I let out a deep breath.

See wah calm yuh done? My subconscious smirks and I rolled my eyes.

I already feel guilty enough.

I sighed and put on my clothes.

Avoiding the splinters, I slipped on my crocs and walked to the door opening it.

I was met with the familiar face of my brother.

"I see your face is healed." I said picking up a dust pan and brush in the corner of the room.

"I see yuh still have mi up."

"I do but I'm actually glad to see you." It's been a week.

"Same." He sighs. "Mi hear some commotion, yuh good?"