Can't You See Me?

One

"Jay, if you would kindly go away, that would be great." I turn to him putting on my best fake smile, then turn my head again back to the board. I felt Jay heavy sigh on the side of my face before he got up and left for his usual seat. Thank god.

"Honestly he's getting better, usually he harasses you for longer." Hanni gives me a thumbs up.

"The bare minimum Hanni, the absolute bare minimum."

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It's finally lunch time. I honestly thought it would never come. I'm literally starving. The school cafeteria honestly has pretty good food, but that is to be expected with how much it costs to go to this school. I'm meeting up with Hanni and Danielle, a junior we are really good friends with for lunch today. 

"Guys I took the cutest photo of a flower this morning look!" Danielle is the sunshine incarnated, I have never seen her upset once. Honestly I'm glad she's my friend. We are quite the opposite. I'm not a debby downer but I'm definitely not as high spirited as Dani. Hanni is a good medium between us both so we are a well rounded trio.

"Dani, this looks just like a normal flower." it does. I'm sorry I'm not gonna lie to her.

"Minji. It's not just a flower. Look at how the sunlight is hitting it, it makes it look even more beautiful." she smiles her big smile she does all the time shoving the phone in my face again. I should know better by now Dani is the president of the photography club here so of course it not just a normal flower. 

"It still just looks like a normal flower."

"Does not"

"Does too"

"Does not"

"You two hush and order what you want to eat. I'm tired of waiting on you guys. I'm starving." Hanni pushes Dani and I towards the line of people waiting to order their food.

"Sorry Hanni, Minji just can't appreciate art when she sees it." I scoff and pinch dani on the arm. She yelps and pinches me back. I laugh and pat her head.

"Dani, I love your flower. It's a beautiful photo." Danielle beams at that which causes me and hanni to smile as well. Danielle usually has that effect on people. If she's smiling you are too or you're a psychopath sorry I don't make the rules.

"I knew you loved it!"

"Minji!!" I roll my eyes as I see my little sister run up to us. This is her first year at Ador Prep and she is crazy about this school. I have never seen someone as excited as her to come to school in the mornings.

"Hyein...don't yell, people are gonna stare!"

"People are always staring at you, that is nothing new." She grabs me and hugs me tightly before letting me go. "Hey Dani! Hey Hanni!" She bowed to Dani and Hanni respectively.

"Hey Hyein-ie how has school been so far?" Dani asks as she grabs the plate of food she ordered. She asks her that almost everyday it's been almost a month. I think it's time to move on to different questions.

"So great I've made so many friends and I think I'm gonna try out for the cheer team like Minji." What? She never brought that up before? Tryouts are literally Friday. Why is she bringing this up now?

"Cheer? I didn't know you were gonna try out!?!?"

"Yeah. I was talking to Wonyoung last week and she said I should try out."

"Well I think that's a great idea. Minji is the captain this year so of course you'll make it" I whip my head to Dani's directions trying to make her shut up with my eyes. I can't let Hyein on to the team because they are going to think I'm being biased or something. It was hard enough to become captain with half of the team constantly coming for my throat for things I can't control. I can't help that their boyfriends are constantly trying to get my attention. I don't want it they can have it. We eventually get our food and make our way to our usual table. Hyein bids us a farewell before hopping to her table with her freshman friends.

"Dani, you know I can't just let her on the team."

"Yeah I know I just meant she's most likely good if you are right?" Hanni throws a grape at Dani who throws it back at her.

"That doesn't make any sense. Like seriously how would that make sense?" Hanni makes a good point. I can't just assume that she would be good since I am. I mean I've never seen her cheer before. I don't even think I've seen her do a cartwheel before. We left that topic immediately and started talking about random things like Hanni's upcoming dance competition and Dani trying to recruit some younger people for her club when Jake approached our table.

"Hey Minji, could I speak to you for a moment?" Oh no. I can't do this right now. How can I get out of this? I look around at my friends for help but they both just look down at their food. Great. What good friends they are. Whatever.

"Yeah sure." I get up and walk towards the cafe exit with Jake and turn around squinting my eyes at both Hanni and Danielle. I'll get them back for this. We sat on one of the benches in the hallway. It's kind of awkward for a second no one is saying anything. I was about to just get up and leave when he finally spoke.

"I know we haven't really talked in a while so this is probably really sudden, but would you like to go to the homecoming dance with me." I froze in place and stared at my hands fiddling with my uniform skirt. Suddenly its the most interesting things in the room. I don't even know what to say really. I know that I don't feel that way about him, but then again I do need someone to go to the dance with. It's two weeks away so someone else I like more could ask me, but there is no boy in this school that I like.

"Jake, I don't know. I'm not really looking to date anyone right now and no offense but we didn't actually end on good terms." I finally made eye contact with him and he just started viciously shaking his head.

"No that's okay we can just go as friends and maybe if it goes well we can maybe get back together? I'm really sorry for how things ended with us. I know I said some things that I probably shouldn't have said." So he does want to get back together with me. I really don't want to be with him romantically, but he was a good friend before all of 'that' went down.

FLASHBACK

"I think we should break up"

"What the hell, MInji? What do you mean?? We were literally fine five minutes ago." Jake dropped my hand that he was holding as we were walking through the park. We weren't 'fine' , we never have been. I've never felt romantic attraction towards Jake. I thought I eventually would because he was sweet and he's definitely attractive. I know he loves me, but I can't bring myself to love him.

"I've been thinking about this for a while. Jake, I'm sorry."

"You're such a bitch! You just kept this to yourself stringing me along?" My eyes widened at his outburst. He is usually really sweet and calm so this was definitely unexpected.

"I said I'm sorry I didn't mean for it to go on this long." I take a step back from him as he begins pacing in front of me. I can almost see steam coming out of his ears.

"I should've listened to my friends when they said you were an ice cold bitch that can't love anyone. Why can't you just love me Minji? I've done everything for you. I've been perfect." I turned away from him as I felt my eyes tearing up. Everyone thinks I don't have emotions. Well I do. I can't believe he said that about me.

"I'm sorry." I say quietly as I walk away crying silently to myself. Not because of the break up, but maybe because he is right. Maybe I really can't ever love someone.

END FLASHBACK

"Can I let you know in a couple days I need to think about this." I give him a small smile when I see his expression light up. Maybe I can give us another chance. Maybe I can love him this time.

"Yeah of course! Just let me know!" I stand up, him following soon behind me, and he gives me a big hug before basically galloping away. God what did I just get myself into.

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Hello fellow Adorians!

Today after lunch did anyone else see that romantic moment between football Captain Jake and Campus Heartthrob Minji. Maybe old flames are being lit again. Honestly...I'm not a big fan. She could do so much better.

Xoxo