American Boy ✔️

Chapter Twenty Nine

Chapter Twenty Nine: Just Over It

I didn't think the day would come when I would hate my own best friend.

Kahit na minahal ko siya ng husto, bago ko siya minahal, bago ako nahulog, naging matalik ko muna siyang kaibigan.

He was kind, popular, caring, and just the best friend there is.

He was my comfort when Genevieve is not here.

He was the one in my heart, only him, dahil nahulog ako sa kanya.

Pero nandito kami, nandito kami sa posisyon na galit na galit ako sa kanya, at siya ang umaaktong parang wala siyang ginagawang masama.

He's caught, he's actually fucking caught.

"I..."

"I... what now? Anong excuse mo, hm?"

Sinusubukan kong 'di itaas ang boses ko dahil nasa loob kami ng pampublikong lugar, ayokong pagtitigan ng mga customer dito sa loob.

"Nagalit ka sa'kin dahil sa away na'tin tapos naging kapitbahay kita, tapos ngayon... ikaw pala yung nagpapadala ng almusal sa apartment ko? Alexander? Really?"

At first, I was creeped out.

Walang sinasabi yung nagpapadala at ano kayang mararamdaman mo kapag may nagpapadala sa'yo ng almusal?

I thought I had a fucking stalker or something!

As days passed by, narealize ko na normal lang naman yung pagkain at baka mabait lang yung nagpapadala. I was calm, I felt okay.

And then it was Alexander?

Of course magagalit ako! Tinakot niya 'ko!

"I'm sorry, I..."

"Complete a fucking sentence, Alexander. Please? You know what... iniisip ko na ngang kausapin ka tungkol sa away na'tin, so we can be best friends again. And then you'd do this shit..."

"I was trying to make it up to you, I'm sorry that I did--"

"No, shut it."

Masyado akong galit para kausapin siya about this. I feel like I have to breathe again, I have to breathe and think then I could have a proper conversation with him.

"Let's talk about this later..."

Huminga ako nang malalim at palabas na sana ako ng shop ng bigla niya kong hinila para harapin siya ulet, that was a wrong move.

"Katerina, plea--"

'Di ko siya pinatapos at sinampal ko agad siya sa pisngi. I told myself that I didn't want anyone to stare at us pero mas lalo lang akong ginalit ni Alexander, I had no choice, my emotions took over.

"I told you, right?" hingal kong sambit.

"...don't, Alexander. Don't. And please... for God's sake..."

Ilang beses ko nang sinabi sa kanya to stop it, it's been a long time and he keeps bringing it back.

"...kung gusto mo pa rin akong maging kaibigan, stop apologizing, just stop it. I am just over it."

Alexander felt guilty for it, for falling and making out with another woman inside the bathroom. It's not like I could stop his heart from falling for some girl, I was crying dahil hindi ako ang nagustuhan niya.