i have decided to publish my theorems on what mental illnesses i think pops may have. i will delve into his childhood and i'll try to explain everything as much as possible. i'm sorry if it's hard to understand, i'm gonna try to dumb it down as much...
so i went AWOL on this for ~5 years. i can explain why, somewhat!
(tw for abuse + rape)
(tw for abuse + rape)
(tw for abuse + rape)
TL;DR i ended up in a 5 year long emotionally abusive relationship with a person i knew irl at the time. the abuse continued even after we no longer had physical contact. i also ended up in another emotionally + verbally abusive relationship on the side in 2019 while out of contact with this person (we went in and out of contact a LOT). to top it all off, i got sexually assaulted on may 20, 2020 by someone i was seeing at the time. i ended up writing a 259 page google doc about the first person after i found out he's been abusive towards several people, which got viewed + spread on instagram and led to my abuser's current stagnancy.
(tw over)
(tw over)
(tw over)
so uh...my life's been very busy, to say the least.
i got inspired to finally update this after i found this german notebook (notebook creator's website ends in .de, which is short for deutsch) with what i assume is a fairy on the cover which i relabeled (initially in pencil, then in pen) as "red's book of characters with mental illness" in really shitty script.
when i opened the book, the first few front pages were just doodles i most likely made as a kid and what i assume is a list of children's detective books i was going to be bought, written down by my mother. then i remembered that whenever i had a "secret" project i wanted to keep hidden, i went to the back of the notebook.
cue me going into the back and finding my character analysis of pops on paper, presumably made some time around 2017-2018:
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