❦︎ 𝐒𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐲 𝐊𝐢𝐝𝐬 𝐎𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬 ❦︎

𝐔𝐧𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐝 𝐛𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠 - 𝐌𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐮𝐧𝐠

I wish that you would love me

𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐬:
~ 𝐦𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐠
~ 𝐌𝐢𝐧𝐡𝐨 𝐚𝐬 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐫
~ 𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐨𝐟 𝐬𝐦𝐨𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠
~ 𝐜𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠

❦︎

"Well fucking done. Really.
I hate you, Han Jisung."

Minho threw the fifth positive pregnancy test against the wall
of his small dorm room, not even
noticing the angry tears running
down his cheeks.

He wasn't even surprised,
he was just.. angry.

Every time he had told the
younger that they had to be
careful since his body couldn't
tolerate the birth control pills,
every time he had practically
forced Jisung to check the
expiration date of the condoms
twice because he didn't want
this to happen.

But now he was here,
curled up on his cheap bed
with his arms wrapped around
his aching middle and he didn't
even know if it was because of the
nausea, the anger or the baby that
his part-time lover had put in him.

"Min, you okay? I heard you scream?"

Chan stuck his head through the
door that connected their rooms,
the worry obvious on his face.

He was almost done with his
outfit for the evening, his makeup
was already done, his white-blonde
hair styled but he still wore a black
baggy shirt and not his favorite
black lingerie.

"Yeah it's nothing.
I still need to take a shower so
you can go downstairs without me,
I still need some time."

"Alright queen, if you need something,
tell me, okay? I'm here for you."

"Yes Channie, thank you"

Minho forced a smile but sighed
as he let himself fall on his bed
again and closed his eyes
for a moment.

He just wanted to get the box
of cigarettes he had somewhere
in his drawer, pull one out and
take a deep drag but he knew
he couldn't, not when there
was actually a child growing
inside of him.

And he wasn't sure how he
would survive the evening.

It wasn't like he had ever loved
his job, using his body to earn money
was nothing he was proud of.

But he had friends here,
a warm place to stay where
he'd get food as well and he
got some money, it was way
better than living on the streets.

"Oh Minho, you're still here?
Everyone's waiting downstairs
to warm up together"

Hyunjin stepped inside the room,
ignoring the mess on the floor.