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𝗠𝗬 𝗗𝗘𝗔𝗥𝗘𝗦𝗧 𝗥𝗢𝗦𝗬 𝘪 𝙗𝙪𝙧𝙣 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 in which pansy writes letters that rosalind won't ever read. (pansy parkinson x fem!oc) (post war...

† without you

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от -pogueszn

от -pogueszn

june 27, 1998

tw: mentions of suicide and self harm

rosalind,

i feel awful. i feel absolutely, heart-shatteringly awful.

i thought i was doing better, getting up more, going out. marlene and i went to a muggle amusement park yesterday, it was great.

and today i feel awful. everything i see reminds me of you. you are everywhere.

you are in the coffee i drank this morning. you are in my whisky stained bed sheets. you are in the breath i can never seem to catch.

i've been having panic attacks all the time now. they're awful. i can always imagine you calming me down and it only makes me freak out more.

because rosy you can't calm me down. even as i write to you i can feel the breath leaving my lungs and deciding never to return.

rosy, i can't live without you. i won't live without you.

this is the last letter i'll write.

i won't have to live another second of this damned miserable life.

i love you.

see you soon,
pansy