Our Last Summer

Chapter Seventeen

"Caveman" I say and he grunts as I walk up the stairs Levi is sitting on the floor next to the bed and set the tray down in the bed

Penny and Levi both help them self's to the pancakes and me and Nathan sit on the floor Nathan already has another pancake in his hand I pull one off the plate and take a bite

"Oh my god, thank you Lena your the best" he says I smile And nod

We finish up breakfast and head downstairs, me and Nathan get stuck with dishes as Levi Penny and Noah sit in the living room planning the party for tonight.

"Why are you doing dishes, you made it somebody else can clean" he says and I shrug I'm about to answer when my phone rings I pull it out of my pocket and it's my mum

"It's mi mami, I'll be back" I say leaning against the table and answering it

"Hola Mami! How are you?" I say enthusiastically into the phone

"Hola Mija" he says her usual pip in her voice gone

"What's the matter?" I say matching her tone she sighs

"It's the custody battle honey, it's not looking good for me" she says and my stomach drops and I'm sure my face pales I feel like I'm going to pass out I can't say anything about it. Why does my dad even bother I'm only seventeen for a few more months by the time this trial is over I'll be 18 and In charge of myself

"No Mami it can't be" I say I hear her sniff on the other end

"I'm trying baby I really am" she says and I believe her she's my mother I would always believe her, she would never do anything to hurt me or lose me.

"Ok" I whisper my voice cracking I clear my throat

"te quiero, mami" I say before quickly hanging up the phone "I'll be back" I say to Nathan and rush outside

I walk quickly down the stairs and past the pool and though the gate leading down to the Beach luckily, nobody saw me rush out other than Nathan, and I'm hoping he won't follow.

I go to the right where there's a marina, with a wall of rocks surrounding it, I've seen people climbing on the rocks before and it looks like a good place to hide, I climb up the rocks until I finds a little ledge I can sit on and stare out at the ocean.

That's when the tears come, they come quick and silent, I didn't realize I was crying until I couldn't breath anymore. I was gasping down air, I'm having a panic attack, I I tried to slow my breaths

I'm using the five senses technique my therapist back home taught me, I'm down to what is one thing I can feel... and right now I feel a hand touching my back, and then a familiar voice talking in my ear

"Hey, hey calm down it's ok" I hear Nathan say, he followed me after all, damn him.

"I" gasp "can't" gasp "breath" gasp, I say between hyperventilating breaths, he looks into my eyes his full of coolness and calm that washed over me like a title wave. He looked so experienced with this

"Follow me, in, and out. In, and out" he says and then breaths he grabs my hand and puts it over his chest, I can feel his steady strong heartbeat and few him breathing, he takes my other hand and presses it against my chest ti feel my erratic heartbeat and raged half breaths.

His hand covers mine over my heart. I feel myself beginning to calm down and he smiles a little bit lighting his eyes

"Just like that, good girl" he whispers as my breaths get longer and deeper I close my eyes feeling my heartbeat slow and my tears dry as I calm down.