𝓝𝓸 𝓙𝓸𝔀𝓪? 𝓝𝓸 𝓟𝓻𝓸𝓫! (𝖤𝗆𝗉𝗈𝗐𝖾𝗋𝖾𝖽 𝖶𝗈𝗆𝖾𝗇 𝖲𝖾𝗋𝗂𝖾𝗌 1)

CHAPTER 13- (MEET)

That someone message me regarding my post earlier. Hindi ko na lang pinagtuunan ng pansin yung message niya kasi hindi ko naman talaga personal na kilala yung nag-message sa akin. I’m just doing what the rule had said, ‘don’t talk to strangers’. And talking to strangers online is not an exemption to that. I also don’t know why it says, we’re social media friends. Dapat talaga tinitigilan ko na yung ugaling kung sinu-sino na lang i-na-add at kino-confirm kahit hindi naman talaga kilala, para lang masabing maraming ‘friends’ sa social media. Maybe I need to clean all my socials one of these days. Bumuntong-hininga ako at nagpasyang ituloy na ang pag-uwi sa bahay.

When I entered my room, I immediately sat on the edge of my bed and then again surrounded by my pool of thoughts. I started blankly at nowhere and now drowning by my own thoughts. Drowned by what ifs.

What if I have a special someone? What if I have a special someone to celebrate with me this special day? What if I have a special someone to celebrate with me this special day, would I feel happy? Would I feel contented? Would this empty feeling will finally disappear? What if? Just what if? I would love to know.

I may look happy in my picture being all alone while surrounded by couples but deep inside I wish to also have someone special on this day. Someone who will greet me a happy Valentine’s Day. Someone whom I’m with to celebrate this day. Someone who would give me flowers, chocolates or teddy bear. Someone who would give me lot of kisses and hugs. And someone who would say those three words to me. You know, those usual yet sweet things.

Ako lang mag-isa sa bahay ngayon, actually. May date si mama at papa. Panigurado may date din sila Alex at Kayla. Lalo naman si Kate at Josh. Ayoko namang tumambay pa lalo sa labas kasi kung hindi ako nilalanggam, naiirita ako na ako lang ang mag-isa ngayon. This is the time of the year that being single sucks. Bakit kasi may February 14 pa sa kalendaryo, eh pwede namang after ng February 13, 15 na agad. But who am I kidding? That won’t happen. Ang mabuti pa, itulog ko na nga lang ‘to. At least when I’m into oblivion, there’s no such thing as empty feeling inside.

Pero bago ko pa magawa ang plina-plano kong pagtulog, I startled because my phone beeped ‘cause of a notification that someone message me. And that someone is still the same person who also message me earlier.

I sighed and decided to open his message.

Him: I know that I shouldn’t feel this, but I’m kind of relieve that I’m not the only one feeling all alone on a Valentine’s day. Grabe, we’re rare. Haha.

‘Feeling close naman neto,' sa isip-isip ko.

Also him (earlier): You’re alone? I’m also alone! Celebrate?

‘Tingnan mo ‘to. Feeling close talaga,' sa isip-isip ko ulit.

I decided to reply since wala naman akong ginagawa tapos ayoko namang magpalamon na naman sa mga naiisip ko tapos para na rin malibang ako. Saka wala namang mawawala eh. So much for not talking to strangers even in socmed. Eme ka po, self. Tsh.

Amarah Quintos:  Who u po ba? I don’t talk to a stranger po kasi. (As if hindi pa ‘to pakikipag-usap sa isang stranger ah)

Eme na naman ako sa part na 'to. Haha. I don’t talk to a stranger my ass. In-entertain mo kasi wala kang ka-chat! Hmm. Ambilis magreply ni koya ah.

Him: Ow. I forget about that. I’m Ron. Schoolmates tayo actually. Nasa upper floor lang yung room namin actually ulit. Haha. Kami yung laging dumadaan sa hallway ng room ninyo.

As if naman sila lang yung nadaan sa hallway namin. Loko 'to. Sa dami ng dumadaan dun, paano ko ma-a-identify kung sino siya dun? Labo ni koya oh.