Guilty Bite

7) Aida Belle

How... how the fuck didn't we see that coming?

I realized that day that no matter how strong we are, they can still beat us, they can still kill someone we love, someone... that is life to us.

It's not even a Villanueva, but he's still connected to a Villanueva.

Hanggang kailan ko pa ba kailangang makita 'tong panaginip na 'to? Ilang beses na ba 'to? Milyones na ba? Pagod na 'ko, pagod na pagod na 'ko.

I guess, at the back of my mind, it's still lingers to me.

The sight of my dad bleeding, his eyes closing, and the cake he baked for me.

Fuck, it hurts.

It still fucking hurts.

"A-Aida?"

Nagising ako sa boses ni Lucas sa tabi ko, pinunasan niya ang luha sa may pisngi ko. Our eyes met as he continued to wipe the tears on my cheeks and the others on the corners of my eyes.

"Aida... o-okay ka lang... ba?"

Fuck, I took a nap and I dreamt of that nightmare? Grabe, hanggang sa eskwelahan talagang sinusundan pa rin ako nang bangungot na yo'n?

"I... am okay. Sorry, ano lang... hah..."

I don't even know. I don't even know how to explain to him, ano nanamang sasabihin ko sa kanya? Na may bangungot ako?

Fuck, I'm going to tell him some trauma or sad story that I had experienced before?

I... don't have time for that, tsaka 'di ko yun gusto. I don't like telling anyone about that nightmare, baka maiyak lang ako.

"Okay lang..." Lucas said, wiping the tears on my chin.

"...okay lang kung... a-ayaw... mong... p-pagusapan..."

Tumango naman ako sa kanya at sinandal ulet ang ulo ko sa balikat niya. Gosh, he just brings comfort to me, ewan ko ba, gano'n lang.

Gano'n din naman si Estella sa'kin at yung mga kasambahay, but... I don't know.

He feels warm and comfortable, it's hard to explain, nakatulog nga 'ko eh.

Tsaka teka lang, ba't parang ang tigas ni'tong balikat niya?

Ang tigas? Grabe muscles ni'tong lalaking 'to, feeling ko pang-sports 'tong katawan niya yata eh.

"Nagbabasketball ka ba?"

"A-Ah... h-hinde...?"

"Bakit parang patanong ha?"

Gosh, he's still adorable. Kind of reminds me of Pikachu for some reason, cute talaga niya.

"Sure ka ba talaga? Grabe muscles mo oh, sali ka kaya sa intramurals."

"N-No! No... t-that's... imposible yon."

Imposible? O baka natatakot lang siya o nahihiya? O baka naman 'di siya marunong magbasketball, it's not too late yet pwede pa siyang magpractice.

"Try mo lang, magandang workout din."

"M-Mahina... ako..."

"Mahina? Tingnan mo nga yang katawan mo bebe boy!"

I do not know where the bebe boy I came from but I am truly embarrassing, seriously. I sound like I got drunk or something, baliw talaga ako.

"Sensya na, pramis 'di ako lasing..." tawa kong sabi.