7 Stages [II.] ✔️

XXII. | I DON'T EVEN KNOW MY OWN NAME...

RAGE/WRATH/TEMPER
No. 4

Every goddamn moment passes the same
I'm getting up the same time every day
I wonder who's the one who has got the blame
For me getting used to not knowing my name

I'm tired of everybody lying straight to my face
I'm sick of being called sick in so many ways
I'm not some kind of fucking charity case
But we won't ever get to be on the same page

I used to think that life is some kind of race
So I gave it oh, my all to keep up the pace
I gave away my soul but what did it take?
I only blinked twice and it got replaced

Fuck the way I always arrived too late
She's always got her schedule wrapped up by eight
She always swore but she never really changed
How did she get a decent conversion rate?

She was playing with my head, like some fucking game
Kissed my bandaged heart and eased my pain
Lured me in, but then quickly put out the flame
What was I thinking when in her, I put my faith?

I don't think I can handle all that this takes
It's time for me to ask her to give me a break
Oh, don't be afraid I still feel all the pain
But I don't feel like I'm still somewhere that's safe

No, I don't want to go on a ninety-ninth date
A hundred wouldn't be enough to take his place
Honestly, I am hopeful for my own sake
That someday I'll be getting over this phase

But for now, every moment passes the same
No changes in what I do every day
But if I'm not in charge of the blame for rename
How am I expected to know my own name?

H.M. 2022. 06. 13.