Just His Wife

Chapter 16- Start? or Not!

~Shayne~

Nagising ako dahil sa labing dumampi sa labi ko, pag bukas ko nang mata nakita ko ka agad ang pilyong gniti niya.

"Damn! what do you think you're doing?"

"Waking you up..WIFE!"

"Shut up..where are--"

bigla akong na natigilan...n-no t-this c-can't be happening hindi to pwede, no!

"A-anong ginagawa natin dito?"

"Visiting your child" parang sasabog ang puso ko, naninikip ang dib-dib ko.. a-alam na niya?

"MOM!" napalingon kaming dalawa sa sumigaw, it was prince running toward us.

"Oh hi sir....It's you again."

"Hey buddy!"

"Mom..are you ok? you look pale!"

Nanlalabo ang mga mata kong naka tingin kay prince, ito na ang kinakatakotan ko..ang mag kita ang mag ama.

"Hey..shayne, speak" hinugot ko ang lahat ng lakas ko at lumabas ng sasakyan.

"Prince...lets go"

"NO! WALANG A-ALIS..HANGAT HINDI NALALAMAN NANG BATA KONG SINO ANG AMA NIYA"

"Mom! i can't understand"

"Shh baby.."

"SABIHIN MO SA ANAK MO KONG SINO AKO SA BUHAY NIYA..TELL HIM! THAT I'M HIS FATHER"

"HE IS NOT YOUR SON..WALA KANG EBEDENSIYA"

"HUH! YOU WANT EVIDENCE? LOOK AT YOUR SON, THAT'S MY EVIDENCE..THAT I AM HIS FATHER!"

Napa pikit nalang ako...nang bilang mag salita si Prince.

"Mom..is it true that he is my dad?" All i want is a happy Life with my son, a life without Andrew. Coming back in the Philippines is really a bad idea. I heaved a heavy sigh before cupping my son's face.

I want Prince for myself only, lalong lalo na wala namang pakialam si Andrew samin ng anak niya, All he care is his own happiness at wala kami don ni Prince.

"B-baby....Yes, He's your father." Telling him the truth breaks my heart dahil alam kona kong saan hahantong ang lahat ng to. With a fake smile i kissed his cheeks, naramdam agad ako ng pagkahilo and with that everything went black.

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Nagising ako hindi dahil sa ingay na nag mumula sa kong saan kondi dahil sa labing dumadampi sa mukha ko. Nang maimulat kona ang mga mata ay agad kong nakita si Andrew kasama si Prince.

"You passed out kanina.."

"Mom..? what happened to you? why did you passed out? good thing dad's reflex is fast." mahabang litanya ng anak ko, naka kandong siya ngayun kay drew.

"Mom! look at this.. i saw this in the trash bin.. in our house" biglang umalis si prince sa kandongan ni drew at may kinuha sa bag niya.

"This mom" halos ma lag-lag ang panga ko sa pinakita niya, shit! it's our stupid wedding picture.. akala koba tinapon na yan ni ricky? why on earth nakita ni Prince?

"Buddy? you found this?"

"Yes dad..it's in the trash bin"

"Ohw.. buddy, daddy want's to talk to your mom..can you please go out for a while?"

"Sure thing dad"

Pinikit ko ang mga mata ko at tumalikod sa kanya, i am still lying in the bed habang siya naman naka upo. wala akong balak makipag usap.

"Shayne..bakit hindi mo sinabi sa akin na may anak pala tayo.."

Hindi ako sumagot, i don't care kong magalit na naman siya. Seriously? hindi ako tanga para ipakilala sakanya si Prince kong itatakwil lang naman niya kami.

"SHAYNE SPEAK UP!"

damn! padabog akong umopo, nakaka banas na!

"YOU WANT TO KNOW! DAHIL ALAM KONG HINDI SIYA TATANGAPIN NG AMA NIYA"

"THAT'S NOT TRUE!"

"REALLY? AKALA KOBA (PURE SEX) LANG ANG NAMAGITAN SA ATIN? GALIT KA SA AKIN DIBA? SO BAKIT KOPA IPAPAKILALA SI PRINCE SAYO KONG WALA KA NAMANG BALAK TANGAPIN KAMI SA BUHAY MO" pinilit kong tumayo pero diko kaya. Pakeramdam ko umiikot ang kwarto.

I fell in his arms that made me looked up to meet his gaze, i miss those eyes...his pointed nose and those kissable lips i long to kiss and feel. Oh god! damn Shayne you're one crazy woman! stop thinking about that jerk's lips!

I heaved a sigh before pushing him away at humiga ulit, i need to calm the shit out of me. Mali tong nararamdaman to, hindi ito tama. Dammit. I turned my back on him amd decided to close my eyes.

"Let's call this a night" I heard him sigh before i felt his lips on mine. What did just happened? i tried my best not to move. He's reall the death of me.

What are you doing Andrew...

"Sleep well love.." I ignored him as i heard him leave, nang tuloyan ng naka labas si Andrew don lang ako naka hinga ng maluwag. He kissed me, for the first time in 5 fucking years he kissed me and take note he's not drunk. 

I couldn't help but to touch my lower lip, i can still feel his lips on mine. Dammit Shayne and tanga tanga mo talaga!!! if committing suicide is legal matagal konang pinatay ang sarili ko sahil sa kagagahan, but because of Prince i'll keep going for the both of us.

I sit up and reminisce all the pain Andrew brought into my life, the humiliation i got because of loving him and the multiple rejections because he loathe me so much. Pero here i am thinking about him, I couldn't help but to chuckle bitterly dahil sa katangahan ko.

I looked at my wallpaper from my phone, My Son..they finally meet, anong gagawin ko ngayun? mahirap ng ilayo si Prince kay Andrew lalo na't nakita na niya ito, for sure he'll be looking for him kapag ilalayo ko sila.

Damn, this is bullshit! Bahala na, all i'm asking now is a peaceful life for my son..kahit hindi na ako kasama sa peaceful nayon, all i want is for him to be happy and if letting him know Andrew will make him happy then so be it. I'll just keep on reminding mysefl the pain that Andrew gave me, dahil kahit gustohin man ng tanga kong puso ang bumigay at mahalin ulit siya..it'll never happen again.

Not in my clock...not anymore...