Paper Dolls

Chapter 3

What kind of poison was sweet anyway?

I waited for your group to flop, for the small hiatus that followed your groups success to end Sweet Poison's career before it even started. I waited for Blackswan fans to finally get a comeback from their favourite group but it appears the public had different opinions from my own.

Sweet Poison's first single was of a girl crush concept. People were raving about you guys and I tried my best to resist but I finally gave in and watched your music video for the first time. Unlike Blackswan's hard edgy tunes, Sweet Poison's song started off cute and girly before morphing into something much darker.

The beat was unique and highly addictive. I didn't want to do it but I ended up watching that video ten times that night.

Then after a few days, against my best judgement I watched your group's first vlive out of sheer curiosity. I wanted to know why the public was drooling over you girls so much. Granted you four were much prettier than the seven Blackswan members but still, looks shouldn't have been enough.

I remember your first vlive like it was yesterday, Eun Young. The four of you were seated together on a cream coloured sofa, your shoulders touching as you squeezed together to fit into the video screen like a pack of sardines.

Loona and Maria were the most talkative ones, they spoke animatedly to the camera and laughed till their eyes narrowed to slits. The were the most enigmatic, drawing my attention to them first.

Summer spoke occasionally, her words snarky and witty making me think she was the leader of the group. She also sat in the middle and I noticed the others glancing at her for a reaction ever so often.

I like to catch all these micro movements and dynamics for some reason. I used to love noting them in Blackswan's videos as well.

You were the last person I noticed. You sat at the corner, your left shoulder half cut off by the frame of the video. You were barefaced, wearing a simple grey sweater and you were the most quiet. You smiled and engaged when necessary but ever so often your eyes would glaze making me wonder if you wished you were somewhere else.

It made me think of myself whenever I was at my family gatherings. Something in me resonated with you right there and then, I could feel it tugging at my heart, the pull so strong it almost felt physical.

I stared at you for the entire video and counted how many times your eyes glazed over. It was eleven times in total.

I was still a Blackswan fan at the time and compared you to Kina out of sheer habit. Unlike you she was the live wire in her group, the most energetic and loud one while here you were looking like you were forced into it.

At first I thought you had an attitude problem but my interest had been piqued. You were an itch I couldn't seem to scratch away and the only cure was to find out everything about you which was short of nothing because you were a new group with only one debut song.

I watched your debut single again, this time only focusing on you and it was like I was looking at a totally different person. You sang like it gave you life and you smiled like the sun had just reserved it's very last ray only to brighten your smile.

It was obvious that you loved what you were doing and the camera loved you just as much. I watched the video another ten times that night after the vlive, this time only focusing on you.

Both Kina and you are undeniably talented but I can't explain the pull I felt to you, especially since your discomfort resonated with my entire being. I knew how you felt, knew exactly what it was to be surrounded by people and never really fit in.

I decided that night that I would give Sweet Poison a chance. It was only because of you, Eun Young. You made me realise that what I felt for Kina was just a teenager's silly crush and that our connection could be so much deeper.

Because we were so much alike.

I've never regretted that decision. Supporting Sweet Poison was the best thing I ever did and every day I fall for you more and more.

I want to wish you Happy New Year, Eun Young. To new beginnings and to a possibility for us to finally be together one day. Even if it is not today or tomorrow or the day after, I still have that hope.

I will carry it with me till the day you finally retire. Till the day the world gets tired of you and the eyes are no longer looking. I am patient and I will wait.

Always yours,

Hyeon

For this story's sake I am making this sasaeng a bit creepier than normal but not all are like this in real life. Not that I've heard of anyway.

Question: Have you ever heard of a sasaeng before this? Whats the creepiest story you're heard of?

Ill start: A crazy fan walked up on stage, grabbed SNSD's Taeyeons hand and pulled her off the stage. WHILE THEY WERE PERFORMING!!