𝘼𝙇𝙇𝙐𝙍𝙀

other side ₊ ⊹ ﹆

Staring at the dimly lit screen,
the cold blanket of despair
wrapped around me,
my focus blurring from the tv to the dying vase of flowers on my desk,
they seem in pain,
should i let them be?
or should i save them?

Ah, is it not me?
writhing on my couch,
my heart cant take this anymore,
i get up and walk to our my bedroom
i fall onto the bed and turn my head
the hollow space next to me
reminds me
of what is gone.

I close my eyes and try to sleep
but my eyes they start to weep
all i can feel is this never ending coldness
it spreads inside me like a fire
i grit my teeth and turn to the other other side,,,i cant get up
i have no strength to do so,
i touch my face and feel the tears that have dried up,
i must have cried in my sleep
dreaming of us, in the park
laughing without a care,
i wish i could go back to then
and freeze time forever,

I finally get to the bathroom
i see my toothbrush,
alone in a stand made for two
i grip the sink hard
and clench my teeth
the tears seem to flow again
why is it that every time its about you
my heart wails
pathetic, pathetic, I'm so miserable.

I slip into the bathtub
and heave a sigh
i bring my knees upto my chest
and hug them tight
it seems,my heart cant take this anymore
its gone numb
i cant take this anymore
i have gone numb

Cant we just meet in the middle?
why do we have to suffer
why cant we have a happy ending,,
i have decided now,

Lets Meet On The Other Other Side.